clairedunham Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 I keep telling myself "who cares?" "there will be others" "oh well" to ease the pain. I know that if I find out he is dating is gonna crush me. Today I deactivated the FB account I made to speak to him. I have 2 other deactivated accounts and I logged into one to see something because I have friends there and to my suprise he had me unblocked. How is that? He blocked me from the 2 old facebook accounts. I logged in sporadically to talk to people. I know for a fact he had me blocked. Then I see a comment he made on a status. And I'm like what? I thought you blocked this profile. It kinda sucks because it's just making the healing a lot slower because I really don't know why he unblocked me and it could really not mean anything but maybe it's a facebook mistake? 1
crederer Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 It doesn't mean anything. He's curious, just as you are. Nothing more.
Author clairedunham Posted August 23, 2013 Author Posted August 23, 2013 Yea Im thinking too much into it.
lalalovekay Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 We are on the same boat ish Well no I unfollowed. Mine on instagram and I told him I did it because I couldnt see him move on without me and he said he would always follow me. But two days into no contact he unfollowed me. Idk of ita because he missed me and doesnt want to see how im doing or be ause hes really over me.
Author clairedunham Posted August 23, 2013 Author Posted August 23, 2013 I am hurting so bad. To have hope and then it really doesn't mean anything. I feel like I really lost him. He filled my head with I love you and I was the love of his life but he never wanted to meet up. I want to rip his **** off. I know for a fact! that Im not gonna have a r/s in years to come.
lalalovekay Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 I am hurting so bad. To have hope and then it really doesn't mean anything. I feel like I really lost him. He filled my head with I love you and I was the love of his life but he never wanted to meet up. I want to rip his **** off. I know for a fact! that Im not gonna have a r/s in years to come. I am too feeling this way. I want him to come back but I also want to move on. How long has it been since you broke up and since you talked?
Author clairedunham Posted August 23, 2013 Author Posted August 23, 2013 He dumped me via twitter on Monday. Was super cold about it. Told me "it's over ... end of story" and that he didn't love me anymore while I begged and pleaded. Then on Wednesday I contacted him via Facebook tells me "I have nothing to say to you" "Im sick of you" "You say youre always gonna change and its always the same story" "Go get help" and the "I dont love you" that stings. I was having a blast today with a friend of mine and we got to talking. She and her girlfriend (she's a lesbian yes) broke up and were separated for 8-9 months. They got back together after those months. She told me that her girlfriend dumped her because of the problems and **** and that my friend needed to fix herself. She was tired. My friend tells me if they love you for reals all they want to see is a change in you. She tells me maybe my boyfriend wants to see a change in me. But I cant help to think he really doesn't love me anymore. I made him suffer a lot. I'm bipolar, schizo, bpd, I really don't know I'm still waiting for my results but overall I'm a totally chill person or was. Something snapped in me. He got me help and I didn't help myself. It is really a tug-o-war with my feelings of hope and hopelessness. I'm really pissed off at him. We were going to spend our lives together. I do not tolerate anybody who says they're in love with you and they're your certainty to fall out of love. **** them!
Author clairedunham Posted August 23, 2013 Author Posted August 23, 2013 I hate him so much. He made a fool of me. He used me. Why would he give up?! He lied to me for months when he told me he loved me. My heart is hard as a rock now. He made me even worse than what I was before. I ****in hate him!!!
lovesucks76 Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 I hate him so much. He made a fool of me. He used me. Why would he give up?! He lied to me for months when he told me he loved me. My heart is hard as a rock now. He made me even worse than what I was before. I ****in hate him!!! So sorry. You did nothing wrong except love him .. He's a piece of ****. You deserve better and consider yourself lucky he's gone.
Author clairedunham Posted August 23, 2013 Author Posted August 23, 2013 So sorry. You did nothing wrong except love him .. He's a piece of ****. You deserve better and consider yourself lucky he's gone. I just tore his pictures a part and that stupid ass letter saying that he is my certainty. He is a complete *******!! I hate him! I cannot live ****in cryin every night and day. I'm at 102 pounds and my height is 5'5. I didn't eat anything yesterday. I hate that he lives 2 minutes away from me. I hate him . Fooling me for 6 months!! telling me he loves me and ****. Men are ****in ****. We lasted 1 year and 11 months though. 6 months I never ever! saw him unless I ran into him.
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