Kizza Posted August 22, 2013 Posted August 22, 2013 I hit rock bottom last night. Drank far too much wine with people I barely know and then acted disgracefully. I feel like garbage today. I feel like I have taken my last shred of self worth, dignity and integrity and just thrown it down the toilet. I should have been stronger! to get to this point of doing and saying such idiotic things is insane. I have finally woken up to myself and realized that I cannot go on doing this to myself. I need to reboot, learn to love myself again and get back my self respect. What I did was so awful I can't even say it out loud. I just don't understand why i had to hit rock bottom to make the turn around. It is only the day after and I vow that I am never going to do this to myself again. I can be better. I just needed to get it out. It's killing me that I have been so cruel to myself. For anyone else out there who is not loving themselves right now and see yourself spiraling out of control because of bad circumstances or a failed relationship then start being kind to yourself quick! because it is the most awful feeling in the world when you lose yourself. Don't become damaged, don't let anyone damage you, know you are special and treat yourself as such. The best thing in the world is to repair and improve, this is what will help us heal and make us feel amazing.
Dazedandconfuz3d Posted August 22, 2013 Posted August 22, 2013 thanks for the pick me up! Been two weeks for me and I almost a second ago picked up my phone to txt her about nothing...i mean it, like I have nothing to really say to her, but I was going to make some reason to txt and who know have her txt back with something she doesn't want to say or talk about.. your post helped me forgo that situation. need to find myself and be happy with myself before I can make someone else happy, and someone else isn't her unfortunately.. cheers from the USA and thanks again!
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