Ireallydontknow Posted August 21, 2013 Posted August 21, 2013 I talked to my ex today anonymously, she didn't know it was me. She told me that the love she thought she had for me wasn't what she thought it was. She said that she is happier now. While I kind of figured this, it was stupid of me to break NC even though she didn't know it was me. Why did I do this? I was kind of hoping she would anonymously send me nudes. I don't miss her, but f*** I miss the great sex and her body. I feel shallow, dirty, and of course broken hearted. LS please smack me with a newspaper. I let my stupid male hormones get in the way of my healing. Should I go into therapy and ask If I'm a sex addict?!
templeofmax Posted August 21, 2013 Posted August 21, 2013 So who did she think it was to be telling personal stuff like that?
Author Ireallydontknow Posted August 21, 2013 Author Posted August 21, 2013 Yeah it was stupid of me. I am kicking the crap out of myself internally. She thought I was one of her followers. She didn't know it was me, it's all done anonymously. She is one of those people that will just tell anyone anything. I guess I asked for it. Well I guess this is back to NC day one. I deleted the account and now I'm just going to try and get some sleep.
forgetmenot75 Posted August 21, 2013 Posted August 21, 2013 Yep..I've done that before. And it brought me more tears and pain. Don't blame yourself. you're desperate right now. But don't do it again. Never again. She's happier now, she didn't love you as she thought... what else you need to figure out? No Contact forever.
Author Ireallydontknow Posted August 21, 2013 Author Posted August 21, 2013 Yep..I've done that before. And it brought me more tears and pain. Don't blame yourself. you're desperate right now. But don't do it again. Never again. She's happier now, she didn't love you as she thought... what else you need to figure out? No Contact forever. Thank god...I thought I was the only one. I didn't want to post why I did it on here, but I wanted to be honest. I don't feel worthy of helping people out on here anymore when I can't even do it myself. I feel like she is in that infatuation phase where you just feel SO HAPPY to be with this new person. I know it doesn't matter regardless. I just feel a whole mix of emotions. It could never be again, I could never trust her again. Honestly though, after 5 years of being able to get sex on demand with a girl I found hot as heck, I was just getting desperate. I'm sorry LS I let you all down. I couldn't stay strong.
templeofmax Posted August 21, 2013 Posted August 21, 2013 Send a picture of her! Now I am curious the way you describe her!
Simon Phoenix Posted August 21, 2013 Posted August 21, 2013 Send a picture of her! Now I am curious the way you describe her! Pretty sure that's against the rules of the forum.
Author Ireallydontknow Posted August 21, 2013 Author Posted August 21, 2013 I don't want to see a picture of her right now...I just want to f****** strangle her right now. She doesn't deserve to be happy, she is a terrible person who led me on till she was secure with another person. She put MY life on hold for her own emotional needs, knowing full well what she was going to do to me in due time. I hope it blows up in her face.
JDPT Posted August 21, 2013 Posted August 21, 2013 Same here, I used to obsess over the sex my ex and I had which was beyond ridiculously amazing mostly for her. My ex is so freaking hot and I do t just say that because she was my ex, this girl used to turn heads everywhere we went, talk about good genes. At times I think the next guy who gets to have sex with her will be such a lucky bastard as she is a lot of fun in bed. But I learned not to torture myself because its life, she will or perhaps already had sex with someone else and that's just fine with me.
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