Writing in a journal

[dgiirl]

So about 8 years ago, I went through a really hard divorce. He was the "love of my life" and he walked out. I had a really really hard time getting over the divorce. It took me years to get over it. During that time, I wrote in a journal all my emotions and feelings.

 

One of the things I wrote was a 75 check list of traits I wanted in a partner. The amazing thing is, I got really really close to all of those things with my ex-bf. We were together for 6 years but recently broke up 1.5 weeks ago because we couldn't figure out how to get to the next level. I'm not sure what he is feeling, seems to be wavering. Whatever. The awesome part is, when I was going through my divorce, I never imagined I would EVER experience any of those things in the checklist, but I did! I had a really really great relationship. It gives me hope that my next relationship will be just as awesome, if not better! I know in my heart and soul it will be.

 

The other thing I wrote is a list of my good qualities. I'm hard working. I'm loyal, fighter, compassionate, kind, smart, funny, pretty, caring, makes sacrifices, not demanding, doesnt expect too much, very happy with simple things, willing to do anything for someone. When I wrote this list, I was highly depressed. My exh hated me, said some really cruel and hateful things, and I believed him because I placed him on such a high pedestal. But over the years, I learned that he was full of it and really was an *******. He was the wrong man for me and when I met my ex-bf, I won the lottery.

 

Obviously, my ex-bf broke my heart when he left, but no where near I was during my divorce. That's not because my exh was better for me. In fact he was very abusive. But I changed! I got so much stronger! I love my bf. I want us to work. But I will never sacrifice myself and well being. I'm a much more confident person and I know, no matter what happens, life will be ok.

 

For those who are struggling, write in a journal. Allow yourself to dream what you really really want. Write it down and give it to the universe! Give it some time. Maybe a few years like I needed too. But you'll be amazed! Life will give you what you truly truly want and need!