Dez Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 for about a decade, i've had my episodes of contemplating suicide. but ever since my ex left me, the thought of it has become more stronger. during our relationship she was the only one who really cared for me and my depression. i no longer have my close friends in my life either. my ex girlfriend was really my only support system. she told me she no longer can be here to help me because its too draining. i haven't been in contact with her and i really miss her. i'm lovelorn. i have the urge to tell her that i need her back in my life, because i don't know how much longer i can handle this. its hard waking up every morning feeling lonely, having no one to talk to. ppl may say things will get better, but for me its not that easy. this is the greatest pain i ever felt. i want to talk with my ex, but she want's space. i'm f**king losing my mind.
skydiveaddict Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 First you need to see your doc about dealing with your depression. Second, start jumping. It will give you a whole new perspective on life.
thetoughone Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 im dealing with what youre ex was dealing with. the man is suppossed to be the strong one, yous are suppossed to take care of us. crying all the time & being depressed all the time. ALL THE FREAKING TIME is annoying. once in a while it is cute for the guy to cry to the girl but if its more then once every like 6 months its pathetic. & suicide shows cowardness. dont do that. dont take youre life. if you were truly happy with your girlfriend then why were you always sad? if she made you as happy as you said she did you wouldnt have pushed her away by being so emotional. be a man, stop thinking about suicide & win her back by showing her you are a strong man.
lovesucks76 Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 for about a decade, i've had my episodes of contemplating suicide. but ever since my ex left me, the thought of it has become more stronger. during our relationship she was the only one who really cared for me and my depression. i no longer have my close friends in my life either. my ex girlfriend was really my only support system. she told me she no longer can be here to help me because its too draining. i haven't been in contact with her and i really miss her. i'm lovelorn. i have the urge to tell her that i need her back in my life, because i don't know how much longer i can handle this. its hard waking up every morning feeling lonely, having no one to talk to. ppl may say things will get better, but for me its not that easy. this is the greatest pain i ever felt. i want to talk with my ex, but she want's space. i'm f**king losing my mind. We are here because we're ALL hurting, just like you. You're not alone. More importantly you need to seek help because it's important to take care of yourself first and foremost. She said "it's draining" because probably it is draining to her. That's why we sometimes hire professional doctors to help us deal with our problems or depression issues so it doesn't become a burden to those close to us. Have you thought about joining a cycle club or a gym. You need to get out there and meet new people and fight for a healthier life. Also make sure you talk to a professional about your depression, they can help. You will be happy you did. Good luck! 1
Knoxpwns Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 So if you want to die you obviously dont give a ****, like, about anyone. cause if there is anyone who loves you, you don't give a **** about them, or hurting them, and if there's not, there's no one to give a **** about. So instead of killing yourself, why don't you just get the **** out? leave the basement, leave your house, leave the mother****ing country. Go on an adventure, spend your time doing something awesome, like tracking down terrorists. go be James Bond. Go **** up a shark with a harpoon. Dangerious? you were suicidal and facing a 100% death rate before, you're being safe now. **** EVERYTHING, man, the world is your oyster. Sometimes I wish I was suicidal. I'd pull the barrel out my mouth and start a revolution. LIVE. move to barcelona, bang some chicks, STDs, who ****ing gives a ****? And then when I'm done, maybe I wouldn't want to kill myself, because I've seen how beautiful the world is.
Misfortune Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 im dealing with what youre ex was dealing with. the man is suppossed to be the strong one, yous are suppossed to take care of us. crying all the time & being depressed all the time. ALL THE FREAKING TIME is annoying. once in a while it is cute for the guy to cry to the girl but if its more then once every like 6 months its pathetic. & suicide shows cowardness. dont do that. dont take youre life. if you were truly happy with your girlfriend then why were you always sad? if she made you as happy as you said she did you wouldnt have pushed her away by being so emotional. be a man, stop thinking about suicide & win her back by showing her you are a strong man. As tough love as this is, I agree. I realize I was like this, like the OP in my last relationship. It's hard to stay strong when it feels like the world is against you but you have to, especially if you have someone else depending on you. It has to be 50/50. You can't just put everything on your mate and expect them to fix you, they have issues too. Talk to friends, family or a counselor sometimes. I'm working on "manning up" and being more confident since my break up. I realized that I was really weak emotionally and I put a lot of burden on my ex to keep me happy. 1
NomiMalone Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 Dez, my heart goes out to you. The fact that you've acknowledged your depression and the cause of your thoughts/behaviour is already a huge step forward, as many people with depression refuse to even accept that they suffer from it. I completely understand how difficult and painful your break up must be for you. My advice to you, is to seek professional help. Start off with your GP, who can refer you onto a counsellor/psychologist. Take little steps at a time, and just by taking action, you'll feel more in control of your life once again. If you ever feel alone, just jump onto this forum for support. We're all going through difficult times and are here to support one another. Let us know how you're going. Sending hugs
iouaname Posted August 19, 2013 Posted August 19, 2013 I understand exactly what you are going through. I have felt depressed and suicidal many times in my life, and it seems to always relapse. I think that my ex also became emotionally drained by it and that it was a big factor in our breakup. And of course, that seems to make the depression even worse. It also feels like every time the depression comes back, it comes back stronger and while you should have learned ways to cope with it, instead you just feel mentally exhausted. Anyway, I know how hard it is - but you just have to keep fighting it. You keep fighting it, and eventually you get stronger and stronger. I know that there are people out there who care for you and who would be devastated to lose you. Seek help! There are always people out there who will be willing to help you.
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