rhw Posted August 17, 2013 Posted August 17, 2013 i run the risk of people plagiarizing or claiming my work as their own. i hope nobody here is stupid enough to do that, but i wanted to share something my pain inspired. the thing that inspired this was that one moment 11 years ago where we were out to dinner and his phone rang, he answered it and shushed me (quietly, lip to finger) and smiled, rushing to get the caller off the phone. when he hung up, he sheepishly said, that was my gf. that was the moment i should have put a stop to everything. i didn't so i am just as accountable but anyway, here it is. cataclysm all it took was just one word- "shhh!" - and a smile to take everything away from me, cleverly painted in my warmth and light, theft never shined so attractively i turned a blind eye to that road sign oh, i'd seen it from afar but in that second, i chose adoration, hurtling straight for the cliff from the comfort of his car but it wasn't fast and loose, the ascension to despair i was with a broken man who made some choices, too and i was as much the accomplice as his lover in ever so slowly destroying the self I knew my aspirations were many and he sat close, absorbing all broadcasting his desire and affection in every single way, his body language never lied and i knew he really loved me; i never aspired to be a cliché so this is how it ends he jumps out for safety and watches from above as the car preserving all our hopes and dreams- oh and me, too!- explodes, denying all the affection, denying all the love he forgot a little detail as he skipped home to his "happy" life all the strength and light and trust he ever felt radiated from my soul the "happy" will fade and he will be back to not knowing his own worth, slipping back into his hole a cataclysmic event can change a landscape to the point of no recognition, to pain and desolation at my heart's first tear-filled sight but i stumble up the hilly crest destruction cleared for me, collecting all the fragments of my strength, my warmth, my light. -rhw. property of m.k. 8/17/2013
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