Mr.Midnight Posted August 17, 2013 Posted August 17, 2013 Hello, I'm Greg and I'm new to these forums, I need help and I think I can find it here. Bear with me please. Alright, so my name is Greg, I'm 17, geek, tan, decently muscular and skinny otherwise, just moved to San Diego, and I love this girl named Bethy, who's 14, deep relationship with God, empathetic, (would make a great wife), respects/dominated by her parents, very pretty and tan, plays guitar, and most importantly in Florida, where I just moved away from. We met a couple of months ago at church, in my church there is a section for the youth to sit in during the service, and I was alone in my row, then she came and sat next to me and said she was doing so because I looked like I was lonely and needed company. She wouldn't stop fidgeting during the service, but we didn't really say anything else to each other (missed chance I know). I messaged her on facebook afterward and we had a pretty good conversation going, she was taking initiative in places, but then it just stopped 3 days later. Sporadic messaging for the next 2 months, then we both end up on the dance team for my church's VBS. (No homo, it was hiphop mainly). We had fun together, and spent a lot of time together, and talked about personal stuff (about me, she always deflected the conversation away from herself, no matter how hard I tried). I was feeling good at the end of the week, and I asked her out, and she said she wasn't allowed to be alone with boys, and she had to babysit her little brother. Naturally, it was raining on me too. The next week we went on a mission trip and did our dances for a VBS in Miami. I had to move in a week. I decided I had to tell her how I felt about her or I would never get the chance. So throughout the week I was waiting for the right moment(dumb me) and on Wednesday, she asked me to dance with her to the Jamie Grace song "Hold me". Now, awkward kid that I am, I haven't ever danced close to a girl, but she taught me, and I luckily knew where to place my hands. But other girls were around, so I couldn't take the chance. The next day I told another girl how I felt, because she noticed I was in pain, and she ended up telling Bethy. Bethy then avoids me, and I kept asking her to talk to me alone and she would say yes, but then run away when actually confronted, it came to night of the last day and I just called her a coward and went to bed. The next morning she came up to me and apologized and said she had been acting rude, and I asked her if I could pass my iPod back and forth to her on the bus back home to talk since we were out of time. We did, she said she was avoiding me because she was hurt before and didn't want to go through it again. I asked her why and she wouldn't say. She said she puts up so many walls, and that I see only a shadow of her. I told her how I love her. She told me to go find someone better and forget about her. It seemed to me like a 'it's not you, it's me' thing.* I said goodbye to her alone once we arrived, and I hugged her. She said she would try to keep in contact. 2 weeks later, and I only have her facebook to contact with, which she never gets on. (she has no phone). So I'm close with my old youth director, and he's close with her, and I asked him to ask her for her address so I could write. So this past Wednesday he asks her to consider giving me her address, and she told him she would discuss it with her parents and let him know on Sunday. And that's where I'm at right now. So, I need help, I need to know what to do next. Giving up isn't an option, I love her too much, and I feel like since she isn't letting anyone in, maybe if I keep at it I could win her. I think my main mistake was moving way too fast. In a year I'll be going off to college and I'm gonna try to make it back to Florida so I'll be closer to her.* Thanks for reading this post, I know it was long.
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