ammeevoli Posted November 7, 2004 Posted November 7, 2004 Over the summer I met a really great girl. We started dating, a LDR, and everything was great. But, I lied to her about something and in the end, I lost her to a 'real guy'. I suppose I should mention now that I am a lesbian. Anyway, I lost her for a guy who could be with her in 'real life' to hold her. If it stopped there, it wouldn't be as bad, but it doesn't. I can't get her out of my mind. I tried dating someone else, but I had to end it because my feelings for the first girl were still too strong, and it wouldn't be fair to girl #2. I tried like hell to get her back (#1), but nothing I did seemed to make a difference. Then, one night last week I saw her online, and she started talking to me... I was SO happy, then when we left, she said she loved me and that she always has. We've been talking again, often now. I want her to be mine again, she says she wants it too, but doing so would go against everything she's been taught and it would devistate her family. She wants to be certain we will work before she gives it another try. Nothing is completely certain, only death, and that I love her more than life. So anyway, I need this girl in my life. She makes me feel whole, I love her so much. What I really want is to have her in my life on a romantic level, but if I can't have that, even being just her friend will do. I know I hurt her before, but I would never do it again, ever. Thank yous for reading my long post, I just need some advice on what to do, anyone who has any, please please respond.
Scarlett_girl Posted November 7, 2004 Posted November 7, 2004 follow your heart..support her- it will be hard for her to come out to her family..and good luck!
DJ_Dork Posted November 8, 2004 Posted November 8, 2004 Bisexual women ultimately prefer the company of a masculine male rather than a lesbian. There are plenty of lesbians out there...yeahhh.
ammeevoli Posted November 9, 2004 Posted November 9, 2004 I'm sorry DJ_DORK, did I say she was bi? If I did, I didn't mean to, she is a lesbian, she just wanted someone to cuddle her. Thanks for the concern Scarlett_girl, she did "come out" to her parents before, and it didn't go so well, I think they've kinda forgotten about it now though. I really love her. Today I asked her to let me have another chance... I hope she says yes, or at least considers it. I know she feels the same way, I think she's just scared.
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