All is lost

[8yearsgone]

Hey, I

Well I've drank a whole bottle of wine, feeling pretty low. You think you can work things out, then you realize that everything is ****, nothing makes sense, there's no god, there's just nothing, you're on your own, completely on your own...nothing matters, isn't love suppose to be the one good thing in life, but yet it turns out to be the hardest, most painful thing you've ever imagined?? If that's it, what good is there left? I don't want to know

[reddragon588]

First off, it might be a good idea to not drink for a little while you're recovering.

 

Second, love can be painful, but it also brings a lot of joy. It seems cruel, but you have to feel the lows to truly understand the highs.

[Mcscooter]

First, You need to get your sh*t together. Second accept the fact that sh*t happens all the time. Third start being optimistic. Usually people with a negative mindset don't get far in life. After you calmed down and come to an understanding. Take it slow and move along easier said than done.

[8yearsgone]

You're right....I don't understand why he doesn't love me enough to fight for me? He has problems, issues. Whatever I know I have to be strong and get my **** together as you say, you're right I am a strong independent woman and I will get through this but wow you really understand how vulnerable you can be when you love a man, it's torture, maybe it's a woman's curse or something. I should stop listening to dido, Duffy and sinead omg I'm losing it!!!the hard part is I know he's probably sleeping soundly not even shedding a tear over me!

[JDPT]

How do you know that? The pain is mutual, men feel as well and trust me I know it hurts like hell. Be strong we have all been through the wringer and perhaps still are. This will make us better and stronger people in the future.

[OzHeartache]

You're right....I don't understand why he doesn't love me enough to fight for me? He has problems, issues. Whatever I know I have to be strong and get my **** together as you say, you're right I am a strong independent woman and I will get through this but wow you really understand how vulnerable you can be when you love a man, it's torture, maybe it's a woman's curse or something. I should stop listening to dido, Duffy and sinead omg I'm losing it!!!the hard part is I know he's probably sleeping soundly not even shedding a tear over me!

 

 

happens to guys too trust me, its definatley not a "womans curse"

[8yearsgone]

Thanks for the responses guys! Wow what a hot mess I was, drank wayyy too much all by myself wallowing in my self pity! I even contemplated suicide and then started looking at pictures of my grandmother and dog, both of whom have passed on...thinking what is the point to anything? It was crazy. I am surprised that I didn't contact him....but happy and proud of myself that I didn't!

[mtnbiker3000]

First off, it might be a good idea to not drink for a little while you're recovering.

 

Second, love can be painful, but it also brings a lot of joy. It seems cruel, but you have to feel the lows to truly understand the highs.

 

Well, to split hairs a bit, and get philosophical Others cannot bring you joy. Only you can give yourself joy. Others can bring you pleasure, but it is always attached to the opposite pain. Pleasure and pain always go together and that's the only thing you can get from someone else. Joy is your own gift to yourself and can never be taken away. Deeeeeeeeep

[Mcnulty]

I've sought happiness from myself for a long while now and you know what? I cant do it alone, there I admitted it. I reached out to my sister, my son and my friends, if it weren't for them, i doubt I'd be here. I cant find inner happiness alone, maybe I'm weak for that, but hey ho.

[mtnbiker3000]

^^^ Yes you can!! It's not easy, but you can!! You have to do it alone. If you rely on others you will get burned time and time again. That's a fact!!

 

What have you tried??