confusedatthispoint Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 Month ago me and my GF or well, ex. Broke up..She was the one who broke up with me, she asked to be alone after we fought while she was crying. Now..My EX is a very depressed girl, she used to have suicide thoughts and just didn't see any hope in life basically. I met her as a confident,determined strong man which was exactly what she needed in life. She needes someone confident to help her through life etc. At first I saw a girl with bad confidence which I didn't like. I wasn't really attracted to her at first, wasn't really impressed by her..but with time she really grew on me and I started loving her alot. Now..What I didn't realize is that I became slightly depressed when I was with her. I lost alot of confidence, started saying things that was mean, was really jelous and did stupid things overall..things that wasn't really me. And after this seperation I realized it. I realized that I was uncharacteristic. I had hard time accepting this seperation after a week, so I called her, alot. She didn't pick up nor answer on any texts. After two Weeks I called her from my work phone, and as soon as she heard my voice she was lost for words. She became emotional and started crying. Saying she's proud of my progress in life and that she wants to call me but she doesn't know when, and then she hung up saying goodbye with tears in her eyes. A week later I wrote a Letter explaining how I felt and that I understand her, totally. And from that point on I haven't texted,called nor did I write any letters at all. Also, she removed all our common pictures @ instagram, and started following other dudes etc. Not that it matters nor that I'm jelous, but that makes me think whether shes really done with me or literally just need time off to find herself. In my eyes she's a very kind and humble person, I respect her alot and I regret all the bad stuff I did and said to her. But at this point I'm really confused whether this is forever or temporarily. I know for a fact that what we had was really deep. She has NEVER felt this comfortable with any other guy before. I don't think that she hates me, theres no reason to hate me, but is she avoiding me because it's hard talking to me or just that she might still have feelings for me? Ah well..I'm really confused and I hope some of you understands me and are willing to help me with tips or anything at this point. Also..I don't really struggle much at the moment..I'm not depressed, I think about her alot, but I've made MAJOR progress in life which I thought was never possible. Got promoted, went back to my wrestling academy, started studying again & last but not least, I started playing instruments again!! Sorry for my bad english and ask if you would like to know anything that I haven't mentioned. Greetings!
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