Pink Ninja Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 (edited) 8-13-13 I feel hurt, betrayed, devastation, sadness, anxiety, stress, embarrassment, Emotional Wreck. (I spontaneously cry off & on). Have you notice? The person who mistreat/mistreated you...easily forget, move on with their life & be happy. I dislike him but I don't wish bad on him. It's easier said than done however, "I need to forgive him (for myself) therefore I can move on & be happy". My heart was gradually mending with NC, (3 months), until we called & text each other. I experience deeper, emotional relapse since we had sex in July. (Foolish Of Me) Sat 8-10 (after he was rude to me on the phone) my heart tighten with pain. I cried many tears. I act as though I've lost a best friend, true friend, good man (He's neither to me). He apologized for mistreated me. I don't believe he's sincere because he intentional cause/caused me pain. (WC) With contact; It's difficult for me to forget that he cheated on me with multiple women, disrespected/insulted me, lied to me, lied on me. One of the multiple women that he's involve with, (while he was involved with me), came to my job & repeated everything he discussed with her about me, she cursed/insulted me & said untrue comments (keep in mind the woman & I don't know each other). Most recent he told me that he's involve with another woman, since March & they live together. (WC) He enjoy to mention her name, brag about her & brag about their relationship. I've asked him not to mention her or any other woman to me. It is sooo painful to hear him Boastfully, Rave about her. (I remember how he mistreated me) I Believe (NC) is the ONLY! way for me to move forward in positive direction(s). "Exclude Him From My Life". Actually, NC since Sat 8-10-13 & counting...... I'm Going To Regain My Happiness Edited August 14, 2013 by Pink Ninja
JDPT Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 I'm happy to see that you know exactly what you need to do, NC all the way. No need to expose yourself to further emotional abuse. Work on improving yourself, and make this time work in your favor. Embark on your recovery journey and accomplish the many things you wish to accomplish but couldn't because you were stuck in a toxic relationship. Take it a day at a time and understand that there will be many ups and downs ahead. It will feel as if you are stuck in this emotional rollercoaster with no way of getting off. However, if you put in the work you will come out of this a new and improved you. 1
emi Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 He is such a douche, tell him to get lost and dont ever let that s**** into your life again
Author Pink Ninja Posted August 14, 2013 Author Posted August 14, 2013 @ Emi: ikr. He's MeSsY! Sometimes It's a (slow, medium, fast) process for the heart & mind to detox false love. However, It's A New Day! I'm going to be Happy & Thankful for each day of (NC) with him. It's possible that one day he might contact me through call or text however, I need to use will power & common sense to decline his bs. I'm going to practice the rule of thumb; NC. He Doesn't Mean Me No Good therefore, I Am Not Missing Out. He's History!
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