Mike Bowen Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 Sadly I may ruined all my chances with her I'm currently on NC. But I doubt anything can be fixed. I'm sure this won't fix anything nor do I plan it too. I want to apologize for everything the best I can. I've been a complete screw up to have lost the most important thing to me in the world! If I do I don't mean to bring up the past in its negative forms for that was one of my many downfalls, for I know you wanted to see past everything and look to the future our future if you saw it but I kept mentioning it. Whatever negative thoughts you have of me I don't blame you for them, I bestowed them upon myself. Ive upset you many ways from the time we were together to our break-up and I was to blind to see it. But this time I've had along time to reflect an apprentice what you have in its rarest forms. Each day I've spent with you no matter the ups or downs I enjoyed every minute of it. I loved how I failed at painting your nails an that night you were chasing me all over the streets or how I expressed my feelings to you and you started to cry of happiness as I wiped the tears from your face. I could go on for days about the goodtimes. I loved how you gave me the feelings I've never thought I needed. Your still the first girl I first girl I gave flowers to on our first meet. Your still the one that I only wiped tears across cheeck for. I hate now sending long paragraphs too people and I'm sure you haven't read this far and I don't play you if you didn't. I could go on for forever of the the things that made us both happy. Very fortunate to have do so and to be one of The only ones to let close to your heart. Towards the end of our relatiorelationship I let my emotions get the best of me with out think if the most important one's your emotions. I was selfish to do so. I don't blame you for the way things panned out , I drove you away, but it was a wake up call for me and I needed it. No matter how much I wish us to planned out. Trust was never big on me for the longest time the only one I could count on is me, but you've opened eyes to put trust and faith in the one you love. I still don't expect this to fix anything, for there's no apology in the world that incompeances all the reasons that I'm wrong for you. I still see the same girl I fell for no matter what's happend between us, even in our absence. If you've read theis far I thankyou. I'm sure you can tell I miss you like crazy, an trust me there's never a day that you don't cross my mind. I will always love you nor forget about you. So however you take this with a response or not if no response I'll know its my final goodbye (her name) with a nice punch to the arm, its a little thing we had.
iKING Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 If it'll give you closure, send it, if you're doing it with the hopes to get back together with her, do not send it. There can't be an ounce of expectation on your side or the gesture will only make things worse on you. First, spell check it. Then, click send and never think about her again.
Carenth Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 I wouldn't send it. Won't achieve anything and will set you back when you see how little she cares now. Seen so many friends write sappy letters apologies after a breakup. Unfortunately by then it is too late. They always tell me after a few months when they have got their **** together they felt stupid for sending those kind of letters.
iKING Posted August 14, 2013 Posted August 14, 2013 Sometimes making a formal apology about something can really help with closure. I actually figured that out by watching friends go through rehab, one of the first steps is to make a whole bunch of apologies to people you believe you've hurt, and if it's done in total sincerity, it should then be considered done and over with. He's right though, you may 3 months from now look back and think it was dumb.
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