Author SmithJ Posted August 20, 2013 Author Posted August 20, 2013 wow it's day 8 already! Feels pretty good. Last night was good, laughed a lot with my mum and had a bubble bath and pampered myself Woke up today thinking 'why would I want to be with him anyway?!' sort of mood. I think I'm in the anger stage again but I've having really wrestles sleep so I'm going to the doctors about that on Friday. Booked a couple of days off work too so tomorrow is my last day in the office! Yay! Me and my friend are talking about holidays next year too so that's something to look forward too. Today is a lot more positive.
Author SmithJ Posted August 21, 2013 Author Posted August 21, 2013 Feel pretty good today. Had a sort of epiphany on the way to work, why am I putting MY happiness in someone else's hands?! The only person that can make ME happy is ME. I feel a little foolish for all the time I've wasted but it's just a learning curve. I thought that I wanted to be with someone that will love me etc when everything happened with my ex but I've sort of realized that I don't want to be with anyone, not yet anyway. I don't love myself enough to love someone else if that makes sense so that is my plan from now on. Treat myself well and learn to love myself (probably with therapy) but there's no shame in that. Too often we want to be with someone that doesn't treat us how we deserve to be treated because we fear being alone. We were born alone and we will die alone, sure it's nice to have someone but not someone that doesn't enhance your life. I wish my ex well in the future and genuinely hope he finds what he is looking for. Feeling pretty good 2
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