2betex Posted August 12, 2013 Posted August 12, 2013 I was living with a girl who I have known for a couple of years no sex, just very long and continuous discussions. I was in a place I did not want a girlfriend and she was in a very serious place in her life. She was pretty cu with out a job, she moved out to her families place and it went bad. She asked to move back in with me, I let her. Meanwhile I was getting to like her more and more. We have everything in common and very similar thoughts and goal in life.. However I am 15 years older. She always says that is too old for her to date but when we go out we laugh our ass off and have a great time. then the next day she acts all wired and like it was wrong to do. It was becoming a weekly thing that we would go out, comedy club, trip to Seattle, or any other thing that was beyond her old life. She had a blast every time, one time we laugh so hard all day we cried for a few hours. She would sing to me and get me to join her... Which she rarely sings and she is friggin good... then the next morning be all grumpy, and once again act like it was wrong. I asked her why she does not like to cut loose and let herself have fun. She get pissed when I asked that. But she does on many occasions when we went out. Here is what happened. We went out had a great Saturday she did something that she said she could never do.. I convinced her to do and she loved it. We came home, then the next morning she was pissed and grumpy.. She went into her room then came out in a hour or so and decided we were going to put out own bucket list together of thing we were going to do together, we wrote it down , Vegas, Skydive, Trip to Hawaii, and few other things. Now I do know her well enough that she will run if overly stressed or freaked. Well I was gong to talk to her and I said when I tell you this you are going to freak and run.... Well we were talking and I could not stop my self from telling her I was crazy about her and she flipped out.. She did not let me finish talking to her before she ran into her room called her son and said she was moving out and I ruined her life and I broke her trust. I thought I could just stay friend with her but we had been getting along so well I was falling for her. She said she would never talk to me again.. So she left but left a bunch of stuff at my place. I just put in the closet and went on my way sort of confused but... I stopped calling and texting as she was very missed at me.. Well as time goes on she started dipping her toes into the pool via a friend to ask about moving back in. She texted me and she in a round about way asked if the door was still open for her to come back. I told her it was never closed as she never let finish the discussion. Well typically in the past year or so she lived out of state, and every 10 to 20 days she would call me for advice and or support crying and blah, blah, blah... Well it has been about a month and now she is subtly trying to get back in... She emailed me and told me the terms of her coming back... Like I pay for rent, she works part time, and she can do what ever she wants, I have no involvement in her life what so ever and if she share info when she wants and I can not have an opinion about anything unless asked. Oh yes, she want to bring her 14 year old son also.... Well needless to say I did not respond nor call.... I basically told my self screw this and I do not need the hassle. Well now she is having a real bad time at her sons house and she will text and ask to come over when he is arguing with his GF or friend., lots of pot smoking and behaviors she hates. Well slowly but surely she is communicating more often and with greater frequency, she stopped by this last weekend as she was in the neighborhood.. She stopped by with her son,, Who I really like and he really likes me,,, He always tells me I wan the nicest guy his mother knows. He was asking her why they can not live in this area so he can go to school here. Which means my place. I guess I am confused as I really do care about her and her kids.. but this is the question, they come from poverty and I am middle class, she can not handle me as I am stable and not broke, She leaves and then comes back. This time, it is real strange. She said she would never talk to me again as I ruined her life and her kids, a neighbor of mine who she was talking to stopped talking to her and she blamed me for this, accused me of killing her friendships with her other guy friends... (whatever) So I just do not engage with her BS any more and do not answer her text or calls, and she is now calling and texting more often... I really think she cares about me tremendously but is scared to admit it. Other than that why would she do this. It is sort of funny, as I do really care for and would do anything for her but when she did this running **** she burned a bridge with me.. I can now take it or leave it. She will have to ask me directly and quit being so proud and stubborn and admit what how I think she feels for me. Other wise why try to com back and move in. I am trying to move on and meet other dates, but when I see her is stirs up all sort of feelings and makes it difficult. She does not know that I act uninterested when she call now. So she has to step it up and make our relationship a two way street. Am I crazy or just hoping for something that probably never occur.... She has told me she will never date me or ever have any feelings for me.. But then why do what she is doing?
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