Angry bird Posted August 11, 2013 Posted August 11, 2013 Last night I had a dream about "the person" who ditched me. In the dream we were seeing each other again. And, it wasn't rainbows and gummy bears, just kinda ho hum-ish. A few nights ago I had a dream that right before I woke up a voice said to me "when he comes back, He'll never leave you again." Now all day today I've been thinking good thoughts about him, which I hate. I do not think he will return, and I want to meet a person that will treat me 100% better than this shell of a man. I just hate that he is even in my dreams, trying to drum up false positive feelings in me. I've been listening to a lot of self love meditation affirmations. I don't want to go backwards. I know I can do better than this person, but his behavior really. Caught me off guard and shocked me. I was ( as in past tense) in love with him and thought we were headed towards a promising future together. We were a good match... See wait, there I go again... Ugh. I'm just going to stop now.
Ath1712 Posted August 12, 2013 Posted August 12, 2013 Well ain’t subconscious a bitch? I have been going through something similar myself so I know the feeling well. Your mind hears your instincts. You understand that that person is not worthy of You. Giving someone thought your time, energy, attention, affection, love… and being rejected, leaves a scar. Specially if you had been lead to believe that the relationship had a future, that you finally found your harbor. Apart from the emotional scar, there is the hit of the ego too that hurts. Why he rejected me? Why he thinks that he can do better than me? What is wrong with me? Poisonous thoughts.. Let’s be honest, the one that initiates the break up has the emotional upper hand. But this shouldn’t mean anything really. If it’s not a good fit, then it’s not a good fit. It is us that we underestimate ourselves so much and we feel unworthy. Freud believed that the dreams are a way for our subconscious to speak to us. These deep dark fears and doubts that you have ,come to you at night as dreams. The dreams themselves are not a sign that you should get back together with that person. Are merely your own doubts and fears that you cannot do better. Well, you can do better. You know that already. The sign that you have to get back together, will be if he comes back crawling and spending every minute of every day trying to make up for making you feel that way and for all the heartache that he caused, and then some... Ps: I apologize for any mistakes. English is not my first language. 1
Author Angry bird Posted August 12, 2013 Author Posted August 12, 2013 Well ain’t subconscious a bitch? I have been going through something similar myself so I know the feeling well. Your mind hears your instincts. You understand that that person is not worthy of You. Giving someone thought your time, energy, attention, affection, love… and being rejected, leaves a scar. Specially if you had been lead to believe that the relationship had a future, that you finally found your harbor. Apart from the emotional scar, there is the hit of the ego too that hurts. Why he rejected me? Why he thinks that he can do better than me? What is wrong with me? Poisonous thoughts.. Let’s be honest, the one that initiates the break up has the emotional upper hand. But this shouldn’t mean anything really. If it’s not a good fit, then it’s not a good fit. It is us that we underestimate ourselves so much and we feel unworthy. Freud believed that the dreams are a way for our subconscious to speak to us. These deep dark fears and doubts that you have ,come to you at night as dreams. The dreams themselves are not a sign that you should get back together with that person. Are merely your own doubts and fears that you cannot do better. Well, you can do better. You know that already. The sign that you have to get back together, will be if he comes back crawling and spending every minute of every day trying to make up for making you feel that way and for all the heartache that he caused, and then some... Ps: I apologize for any mistakes. English is not my first language. Thank you for the clarity... I hate this person. And I think any emotion (hate, love, sadness) is an indication that I am not yet over it. I know I can do ALOT better. And I knew that there was something wrong. I just tried o see it through the storm. Lesson learned. I kow I'll meet omeone new and so on, but I really hate being ditched. It suxs. Should have stuck to my guns and kept it moving.
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