supaflyz Posted August 10, 2013 Posted August 10, 2013 Can someone talk to me today? I feel so sad today. A overpowering sensation of nothing over my mind and body. I just woke up about 30 minutes ago and let the dogs out. I open the door and the sky was gray. It was raining earlier as the ground was getting dry up. This feeling of emptiness engulf my body. I felt nothing. Everything looked colorless. I don't know whether my drinking with a friend last night trigger it or was it the grey sky. I know that when I went to the park last time I felt the same feeling of emptiness because the sky was grey and drizzling with rain. I know that more people tend to feel depress in cities where it doesn't have a lot of sunshine. I was drinking with a friend last night and talking about our troubles. She is a mutual friend of my ex and I. I don't know whether we got drunk and start playing truth or dare. She told me she haven't had sex for at last 9 months since her husband left. Then I remember it has been 4 months already since I ever did anything with my ex. We talked about my friend's separation. Then we mention my ex. She told me maybe my ex just didn't reciprocate as much love for me as I did for her. I remember my ex cried when I brought this subject with my ex when we were still together. It has been 4 months already. Time moved by so fast. I listen to these break up songs again.... I know that I miss her. I want to contact her, but my pride is telling me no. She just said so many mean things after the break up. I looked out my door as I let my dog out looking for her car. She used to always spend time over here. The time we spent together was very special to me even though we didn't spend that much time together.
Author supaflyz Posted August 10, 2013 Author Posted August 10, 2013 I'm usually stronger than this. I have been giving other people advice on here. I will just have to stay strong and overcome this feeling of emptiness and practice what I preach.
Legatus Posted August 10, 2013 Posted August 10, 2013 You should listen to your pride. I'm not very much for listening to "proud" side of our souls but in this case I think you should. You have to keep telling yourself that thinking about her won't do any good. Feeling of emptiness... how have you tried to battle it?
richard9 Posted August 11, 2013 Posted August 11, 2013 Talking about my ex always made me feel better at the time but the days following I would get really low and dwell on her, I think this is normal as the brain processes what you have in essence relived. Drinking NEVER helps and the following day your immune system will be down, you will feel weaker and more vulnerable mentally. I do occationally go out for a drink with a friend but she knows not to talk about my ex and I in turn dont talk about hers. This makes for a much more enjoyable evening and limits the after thoughts the next day when feeling hung over. Sounds normal. Try to avoid drink and convos about your ex. Just my advice. Good luck.
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