motherofdragons Posted August 9, 2013 Posted August 9, 2013 This is pathetic. I don't even know where to start, but i need advice. I need advice bad. A month ago, I met a guy named Josh*. We were supposed to be acting together but I thought he was so arrogant that I refused to do the project. Then it turns out that he was in a bad predicament and lost a lot of things. I felt bad and gave it another chance and we became friends. On my eighteenth birthday, Josh* and I met up and don't get me wrong. I always thought he was attractive from the get-go. Anyways, I am so scared of getting hurt. On my eighteenth birthday, he kissed me. It was probably the best kiss of my life. I've only kissed 3 people and I haven't been 'intimate'. He wanted to kiss me more but I kept my guard up because I just don't wanna get hurt or attached to someone that could be using me. I mean I'm worried that he wants to use me, but believe it or not, he was really sweet. This party of mine had drinking involved, I was worried he wouldn't really remember it and that I would get hurt the next day. I don't know where things will go because my best friend suggested that he kiss me. I don't know if he was doing it because it was birthday or if it was actually for real. I'm kind of scared to vocalize my feelings about that because he's a newer 'friend'/love interest. I mean we have a ton in common such as acting, aspergers, love of baseball. We talked the day after and still hit it off really well. I don't know how I could hang out with him given that we're 30 minutes away from each other and lack vehicles. I mean there's public transportation but its still a hassle. Although I really like him. I don't know what this is.
iKING Posted August 9, 2013 Posted August 9, 2013 Please don't take this the wrong way, but that was absolutely adorable. It's a kiss. Relax. Your mind is going a million miles an hour. If you feel you have a good connection with the boy, go with the flow, see where it takes you. Walls are necessary, we all have them, but there is such a thing as taking things too far and shutting everyone out, even the people that do belong in your life. The whole secret of existence is to have no fear.
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