lovesucks76 Posted August 8, 2013 Posted August 8, 2013 I'm on day 4 of NC and while it's still very tough...it's getting a bit easier each day. Well, I went to a spin class tonight at the gym and ran into her. She wasn't supposed to be back until Sep 10th. Not sure why she was there but she was. She sees me and comes over and says "i got here early to warm up, aren't you proud?" I said nothing just smiled and walked away. Later she says as I'm passing by "you're looking lean" and I say nothing again, smile and keep walking. During class I just happen to pair up with the hottest girl there by accident...but still great! She just stares! She sees me in the parking lot and looks at me and I ignore and drive off. That was the hardest thing I've ever done but I feel good. I really wanted to look in beautiful eyes her and talk to her and touch her but I stayed cordial but cold. I'm not sure why all the compliments all of a sudden but that's not enough for me to go back to her....after all we broke up because she's emotionally challenged, a bit cold and very damaged from previous relationships and family life. I do miss her like crazy though...and I would love to have her back but I really can't but it would be temporary, I know better now. She would have to change a lot more than she's capable. Very hard though! Sad!
Author lovesucks76 Posted August 8, 2013 Author Posted August 8, 2013 I really want to call her today please someone stop me....
lukekarts Posted August 8, 2013 Posted August 8, 2013 Why do you want to call her? What do you want to say?
Author lovesucks76 Posted August 8, 2013 Author Posted August 8, 2013 (edited) Why do you want to call her? What do you want to say? I feel bad about ignoring her last night. It was immature of me. I also lost my best friend here. SO it's like losing your lover and your best friend at the same time. We actually care for each other and she doesn't want to date anyone else, she's going through a rough patch at the moment and I think she needs a good friend. She doesn't have many... I still have feelings for her but I think they will go away with time. Also the dynamics of our relationship will evolve from being lovers to just friends. I have done that before in a previous relationship and it worked out for me. We're still friends. Edited August 8, 2013 by lovesucks76
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