mtnbiker3000 Posted August 7, 2013 Posted August 7, 2013 (edited) Haven't had much to post about in a while, but today I felt it. I tasted it. I let the juices run down my chin. Just briefly, but it was there. The end is in sight. For just a few minutes, I actually had no emotion when cycling through the usual thought circle. I felt nothing. No heat inside. No increased heart rate. Nothing. Now, as a veteran of this emotional roller-coaster, I know how this game works. I know it's not a permanent state of mind yet. I know I can/will regress. I know I can/will be set back. I still carry anger. BUT, I stuck my toe in the water this morning for a few minutes, and it feels fine!! Not a bad PJ song either 3 year RS 1.5 year engagement 6 month post BU 5 months NC Edited August 7, 2013 by mtnbiker3000 3
HopelessRomantick Posted August 7, 2013 Posted August 7, 2013 Haven't had much to post about in a while, but today I felt it. I tasted it. I let the juices run down my chin. Just briefly, but it was there. The end is in sight. For just a few minutes, I actually had no emotion when cycling through the usual thought circle. I felt nothing. No heat inside. No increased heart rate. Nothing. Now, as a veteran of this emotional roller-coaster, I know how this game works. I know it's not a permanent state of mind yet. I know I can/will regress. I know I can/will be set back. I still carry anger. BUT, I stuck my toe in the water this morning for a few minutes, and it feels fine!! Not a bad PJ song either 3 year RS 1.5 year engagement 6 month post BU 5 months NC happy for ya, and I wanna be you....
Author mtnbiker3000 Posted August 7, 2013 Author Posted August 7, 2013 happy for ya, and I wanna be you.... Thanks!!! And to you, and all others still deep in the craziness of your BU, it does get better. Hang tight!!! 1
cavalier99 Posted August 7, 2013 Posted August 7, 2013 Congrats bro. Looks like you pulled thru. Soon youll even have trouble remembering what you were so upset about or at least how it felt...its true believe it or not. Rock on! Cav
Author mtnbiker3000 Posted August 7, 2013 Author Posted August 7, 2013 Congrats bro. Looks like you pulled thru. Soon youll even have trouble remembering what you were so upset about or at least how it felt...its true believe it or not. Rock on! Cav Not 100%, but I know I am close Yup, I remember your words from my early days of LS back in Feb/March. Thanks to you and all of the 'class' from that time period. Many of whom have already graduated... I do feel a little foolish for many things associated with my RS and BU. But I guess I am just human 3
thefooloftheyear Posted August 7, 2013 Posted August 7, 2013 Welcome to the other side...They are just people...Nothing more..... Congrats TFY 1
Author mtnbiker3000 Posted August 7, 2013 Author Posted August 7, 2013 Welcome to the other side...They are just people...Nothing more..... Congrats TFY ^^ Another from my freshman class Well, I am not quite to the other side yet, but I can see across the fence. And it looks nice!! 1
BustedUpInside Posted August 8, 2013 Posted August 8, 2013 I haven't posted in awhile, but I just wanted to let you know that I am happy that you have made so much progress . Fingers crossed that things will keep getting better and better!! 1
StraylightRun24 Posted August 8, 2013 Posted August 8, 2013 That's awesome mtnbiker! I'm happy to hear that you are finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel! 1
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