whites7 Posted November 2, 2004 Posted November 2, 2004 I feel black, I feel my legs have been chopped of, I feel shaky, I feel sick, I feel desperate and I feel on the edge of insanity. I want to scream, I want to cry, I don't want to feel like this, I can't cope with feeling like this….it's too much. I never ever ever thought I could feel this bad. I have had some bad times but this is ****ing unbelievable. It's been three days now, I haven't eaten since Friday, I can't sleep unless I pass out drunk, I am ****ing up at work, I am ****ing up my Open University course. My plans for the future have been mangled and twisted. I hate my house because she stayed there, it reminds me of her and I want to burn it down. I want to erase the memories because they hurt like a searing pain. There is only despair. I want to call her, I want to see her, I want her to know how much pain I am in, I want her to love me. Yesterday I took it one hour at a time….today five minutes seems like an eternity. I am calling my house to see if she has left me a message, I am checking my email every minute, I am watching my mobile phone, begging it to ring. I am am struggling with a decision, I want to go to the HR department and say I am ****ing up, but they will sack me Can anyone tell me why we go on? If this sounds like a crazy man's words, it's because that's how I feel. I feel like I'm loosing my mind and it's making me completely irrational. I thought time healed....I feel worse than ever...
Stone Posted November 2, 2004 Posted November 2, 2004 You have a broken heart and you need to take sometime to your self try to hang out with friends or take a long weekend and sort things out, everything will be o.k. soon
bluechocolate Posted November 2, 2004 Posted November 2, 2004 Times does heal - you say it's only been 3 days - that's hardly any time at all. How long were you two together? I'm sorry you feel so desperate & insane but it will get better. I know you've probably heard that before, reason being, it's the truth. It's like a horrible hang-over & you'll probably swear off drink for the rest of your life, but when the hang-over is finished .......... Force yourself to stop checking your home phone & emails every five minutes and keep yourself busy. Take one day at at time, heck take 5 minutes at a time if that is all you can currently handle, just believe that as each 5 minutes & day passes you'll start to get things in perspective & you'll start to feel better.
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