After being told to stop f****ing talking NC and feels good!

[jenny2682]

So financee ended/broke up engagement when I was going through MS attack. Seriously. In a text.

 

So been going back and forth, which yes i was petrified. I was sick, at my parents, on heavy medicines. A week after that...my grandfather died. Seriously in the past 6 weeks I have been blind, lost grandpa, lost job, lost a house I worked on for 8 months...and a finacee. Just all **** away.

 

I did the weeping, you are leaving me, it isn't fair, I am high and dry. Etc. Pandering. I disgusted myself. We went to have a soda and talk bills last Wed night. He was then telling me a story of how he broke up with a woman because she was getting "snippy". He wanted her to date *******s so she could then realize what she had. He seriously told me this. I said is that what you are doing to me? Total red flag. Total. I also knew this girl ended up pregnant with a guy who beat her. He said this all non chalantly. Said she was a "good girl". Then told me he was telling people I was a "good girl". I am 41 years old.

 

said we could work it out but didn't offer to. Said I burned to many bridges by telling people it ended by text and he could never face my friends and family. I said no one hated him. In fact, a few minutes later family members drove by stopped and talked to him and were friendly. I tried to shake his hand and he kissed me. Wants to be in my life, etc. I said he needs to be dead to me. He laughed and said no you don't. I'm not saying it could never work...

 

Friday we were texting back and forth. I said I am sorry...he has never been married, had kids, lived with someone, had a long term relationship, he never listened, I didn't feel like a relationship that my feelings were ignored until I yelled etc. Said had to get ready, have a good night, and not to get wet (it was raining and he drives/delivers). Well I wasn't pandering, not sentimental, etc and I finally got back...stop ****ing talking. DONE.

 

Started NC after that. Not to win him back or anything, for my own mental status. Do it people. When you do it, don't worry about them coming back. They play games, dont YOU do it. They will play games, whether they want you or not. I am 41 he is 40 and we all are to old to be playing stupid games such as I want to be in your life, maybe later, your family/friends are mad, you told them. No *******, people knew I was sick and then it ended. 1+1 sometimes equals 2. People aren't stupid. That is your guilt talking. I haven't heard from him and really don't want to. He knew I figured out the game.

 

People I beg you have self respect. If there are any warning flags RUN. Do not worry if they miss you. Do not ruminate over messages. Who cares how they feel? Who cares if it is OVER OVER. Doing any of these things- they have you over a barrel. They want power, they want you to beg. And if you ever got back together, they wouldn't change a damn thing about themselves they will focus on your wrongs. I feel so much better. Time away let's you remember the bad times, not the good.

[jenny2682]

OOPS...Done was mine! Don't give in people. Just don't. Don't feel bad, dont look for signs. THEY LEFT. THEY WILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT IF THEY MADE A MISTAKE!!!