Breaking up, just letting out.

[Azugobbler]

This isnt much of a question. But I will still appreciate your feedback. Im kind of just letting out, because I tend keep everything personal outside of my social life and I feel like I want to. So Ill just do it here. My girlfriend is leaving me. Its funny thinking back to all the smiles and fun times. It gives me the nostalgic feeling. She went through anorexia and she had ptsd from getting kidnapped. I went through all of this by her side, because she stayed by me knowing im not some normal guy out there. I was diagnosed SPD long time ago. I still remember the first kiss and I was in love, yet I knew this was going to end. So now I see her going away and I feel as if my body is just a shell and I have nothing inside. In the same time, it almost seems like letting a beautiful bird out of its cage. Seeing it fly away and going on to see the world. I felt as if I was the cage. Although ignorant and foolish it may seem, I can say my love for her was unconditional. I would have been happy to live my life with her to the end. She liked romantic things, even though she acted like a tomboy, so some days, I would pull off romantic things for her. Those days haunt me, but as she walks away, I had to put a smile because she deserves it. She got me through depression, my disorder, and many other things. Our last day, we decided to just stay up the whole night, and watch the sunrise. As the sun came up, each second, I felt more crushed. On my ipod playlist, william fitzsimmons - beautiful girl played(why the hell would i play this...worst idea), I couldnt stop the tears. She just held me and told me Ill be okay. This was today. Im not okay. I wont be okay. The more I write, I realize how much I loved her. I dont know what Im looking from you guys. It just hurts so much and I know theres nothing to get rid of this pain. I know I should be happy that I at least got to be with the most beautiful women for a while. I love her, I didnt see her just as my girlfriend, I saw her as a partner in life, someone I could lean on, but whats the use of one glove without the other.