emisthename Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 Hi So it's a week no contact, she hasn't contacted me and me not her. She sent me a msg a week ago saying "I don't love you I don't want to be with you" that was after 7 months of us being in love. It came out of the blue, I called she hanged up, I txt and said what's up? I received that msg. My reply was simple, I sent a sad face. That was the only thing I sent her since, I cannot believe she could be so cruel. I don't know what I did to warrant that, and I have no idea why on earth she tuned out. In saying that she is an addict, meth is her drug! I am drug free and anti drugs- found out two months into the relationship. Tried to help her, sold my soul if I could to help her. Love her with my whole heart, miss her with my whole soul. Feel lost without contact and am up and down like a roller coaster. Does she miss me? Does she regret saying that to me as her last communication? I don't understand... All I did was give, the last time we were together I spent 700 on her for her birthday gift. I just want to make her happy and feel loved, guess my love isn't enough. Will she contact me again or is it over? I can't cope with not knowing. I hate my life right now and I know that sounds dramatic but it's just how I feel. Please help me someone
xanitus Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 what happened that broke you up? Good riddance I say. You fell in love with the WRONG girl. You need to save your love for the right one. Who wants to be with a drug addict? Can u imagine settling down with her having kids? All ur kids would have a higher risk of being addicts as well. COme on. She is cruel and might have someone else. There is that possibility. But you are the better person. Stick to NC and let yourself heal
Author emisthename Posted August 4, 2013 Author Posted August 4, 2013 what happened that broke you up? Good riddance I say. You fell in love with the WRONG girl. You need to save your love for the right one. Who wants to be with a drug addict? Can u imagine settling down with her having kids? All ur kids would have a higher risk of being addicts as well. COme on. She is cruel and might have someone else. There is that possibility. But you are the better person. Stick to NC and let yourself heal Hi there, I don't know what happened. I sure didn't do anything I'm to nice. She does have a bf tho he is her live in dealer, she told me she would leave him for me and she hates him. Guess she made her choice???? I don't know what the hell she thinks.... And she is cruel and probz I am better off but I feel upset still am I that much of a bad person that is all I deserved???
Author emisthename Posted August 4, 2013 Author Posted August 4, 2013 I am crying still now as I want her back
JDPT Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 She is clearly not in a healthy mental state. You are doing the right thing, as previously stated, regardless of how much you love her imagine a future with this girl, not to judge her she is a drug addict who needs help. But you are done with her now and it's not longer your responsibility to provide her with the help she needs. She is a big girl and will make decision whether right or wrong, just keep in mind that those decisions are no longer of your concern. Remain NC, be strong you will have your good and bad days just keep that in mind that that's very common. But remember the difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude, it needs to come from within. 1
Waynester Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 Unfortunately..the drugs are now in control, its the drug making the decisions. Whilst she is addicted to Meth..the clean, trusting, gentle girl is gone. Nothing you can now do my friend. Its sad..but its your turn now, to give yourself a break. You have to move on..at least try very hard. Theres someone special out there who will take your love..& reciprocate. But while you are still hung up here... she wont find you! 1
Author emisthename Posted August 4, 2013 Author Posted August 4, 2013 Thanks guys, I appreciate your thoughts. I guess she is taken over by her addiction, I just feel dumb for falling for her... I wish I was more switched on about drugs, but I really know nothing about them and the effects on a person. I wonder all the time if she did love me like she claimed, or was that the high talking? It's all so confusing at the moment I just feel used tbh. Like I was nothing to her the whole time, proof is in the pudding how she could just discard me like a piece of trash she no longer wants.. I'm the one with morals how does someone like her throw me out? Ugh.... Mind f$*k is what it is. I know she is no longer my problem, but I still worry, deep down I wait and check my phone every min to see if she has called. But I don't get a call or a txt- I won't however contact her that I can promise. 1
brokenheart20 Posted August 5, 2013 Posted August 5, 2013 My brother was on meth for quite awhile thankfully he was able to want to get help and he now has been clean for 7 years. He always has a lot of advice and he has told me, his little sister, that when he was on meth he treated people horribly all because the drug had taken control over his entire life and personality. He said once he was clean he went around and apologized to all the girlfriends, friends, and family that he hurt. So anyways meth is a horrible, life altering drug in my opinion and having a healthy relationship with this girl while she was on meth would be next to impossible. It would be something if she really wanted to change but it's a long process, it took my brother 3 years to get off of it completely.. anyways I think continuing to not talk to her is the best but if you must I would ask her if she wants help with her addiction and if she does then try to find somewhere or someone who deals with meth addiction. Okay good luck! 1
Author emisthename Posted August 5, 2013 Author Posted August 5, 2013 My brother was on meth for quite awhile thankfully he was able to want to get help and he now has been clean for 7 years. He always has a lot of advice and he has told me, his little sister, that when he was on meth he treated people horribly all because the drug had taken control over his entire life and personality. He said once he was clean he went around and apologized to all the girlfriends, friends, and family that he hurt. So anyways meth is a horrible, life altering drug in my opinion and having a healthy relationship with this girl while she was on meth would be next to impossible. It would be something if she really wanted to change but it's a long process, it took my brother 3 years to get off of it completely.. anyways I think continuing to not talk to her is the best but if you must I would ask her if she wants help with her addiction and if she does then try to find somewhere or someone who deals with meth addiction. Okay good luck! Hey there, Yeah it's a sad star of affairs is meth! I have done that I supported her into rehab she was there for 2 weeks until she got kicked out... It was a four month programme. She went straight back to her bf/dealer and straight back on the drugs. I can't stand this feeling I worry all the time that she is going to kill herself on that sh$t! It's prob the worst pain I have ever felt having to have to walk away from her because she told me to. Never mind there is nothing I can do other then hurt! I don't even think she knows how much it's killing me as I haven't contacted her at all but whatever as long as she is having the time of her life on her sick buzz. I give up, I can't heal because I don't understand.
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