feelinghopeless89 Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 Would do anything to just fall asleep. My mind just will not stop! Thoughts of how it was sleeping next to him, how he is now sleeping next to someone else, how I used to sleep so well wrapped up in his arms, to now tossing and turning until 6 in the morning :'( When is this all going to go away. I really don't know how much more I can take. I KNOW that it is up to me to let go and accept that I will never be with him again, but it is easier said than done when I truly believed he was the love of my life. Too many good memories. I want to go back to that time in my life where I was always so happy to wake up in the morning and start my day. Start my day waking up to someone I was so in love with. I'm only 24 I hate that I am living like this and I hate that I try so hard to be happy and I just.. can't be.
JDPT Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 Remember that all things come to an end, nothing stagnates. It seems like you are going through the very early stages of a break up. I recall months ago when my ex broke up with me I used to sit on my couch in the dark for hours at night until I realized it was already 5am and I only had a few hours before I had to be bad at work. Be easy on yourself, don't rush things, it's a process that you must go through. It takes some of us longer and some get through it much faster. Don't think about the great moments, I know we all tend to reminisce on how "perfect" our relationship was with that person but if you analyze objectively you will see that things weren't so perfect after all. Keep strong and get some rest, I wish you well.
Waynester Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 There are no easy short cuts to stopping the pain. The mind will think all the things that don't help.. just make you feel worse. I know.. we know, why? Because we are going through similar.. & its horrible. Its no different in many ways to bereavement.. you have lost someone you love, but like that loss, time is a great healer. I used to hate hearing that, but..its true. Give yourself time, try to avoid torturing yourself with past memories.. they only serve to give you pain today. Its not easy, if it were.. this forum would not exist. You CAN do this, but if you feel bad, if you're wobbling to much? Come back here.. & share with us. I wish i could just take it all away for you, can't do that I'm afraid.. but we can listen, & thats something. Good luck.
Author feelinghopeless89 Posted August 4, 2013 Author Posted August 4, 2013 Thank you so much for the kind words. The thing is... it's not in the early stages which is part of the reason it's so frustrating. I was the same way when it all first happened also. He left me for his ex, but when we were still talking he got her pregnant and it was the last thing I would ever expect to happen. Their baby is due this month, which is why I think my anxiety has just sky-rocketted the last few days :'( You are so right about not thinking about the good moments.. I need to work on that! Thank you again 1
Author feelinghopeless89 Posted August 4, 2013 Author Posted August 4, 2013 @waynester - I wish I could put into words how much your reply helped! Time is definitely the enemy .. Time, and night lol. Although reading people's hardships on this forum makes me feel so bad, it is comforting to know that we are not alone when going through hard times. I am so glad I came across this site a few weeks ago. All of your kind words and other replies have just helped so much. Thank you. So much. 1
crimsoncurrent Posted August 4, 2013 Posted August 4, 2013 Your feelings are completely normal. I don't know how therapeutic this is going to be, but I've been NC for nearly 7 months, and even now, because of my decisions that led to the end of relationship, I have plenty of regret, wanting to travel back in time to avoid making those mistakes. But, I've learned and changed, and with continued NC, the intense emotions you're experiencing right now will slowly diminish, trust me. Your pain won't and cannot last forever.
Waynester Posted August 15, 2013 Posted August 15, 2013 @waynester - I wish I could put into words how much your reply helped! Time is definitely the enemy .. Time, and night lol. Although reading people's hardships on this forum makes me feel so bad, it is comforting to know that we are not alone when going through hard times. I am so glad I came across this site a few weeks ago. All of your kind words and other replies have just helped so much. Thank you. So much. You are very welcome fh89, just keep us updated on your progress. If at any time you feel you are going to fall.. we on LS will do our very best to catch you..
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