seahawker64 Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 So I broke NC and sent her that letter a month or so ago explaining my point of view and basically asking her the questions I wanted to. I knew she would not answer and I was right so it did not bother me the least bit she did not respond. Since our breakup roughly almost 6 months ago, I took some hugh steps for myself and only myself. I left an incredibly stressful job I had that definitely played a part in our relationship struggles and accepted a position at another company that is damn near my dream job. I'm very happy there. I have started dating again and while I seemingly encountered a slightly crazy Woman I have since blocked from my life after only 2 dates, don't ask but it got weird....fast! The other dates have all been very nice but I never felt that connection so I never pursued them any further. I realized driving home from work today that I'm in a different place then I was initially after my BU. It occurred to me that although I still think of my ex a bit, I'm more or less on the fence with my feelings now. Part of me still cares and feels little twinges of pain and the other part of me really doesn't care anymore. We do have an event that we would without a doubt see each other coming up ( class reunion ) and I have opted to not go. I decided not to go for me. I do not want rip open a wound that I think is really starting to heal finally. I do honestly believe I'm thru the really hard, painful stuff. While I realize I will probably always miss her. It isn't unlike other people that have come and gone thru life. Death's, break-up's and so on. I miss many people and she will just become another one on that list. I suspect she will always have a little piece of my heart just like my other significant relationships. She just will not actively be a part of my daily routine anymore. I think this is healing, moving on and re-establishing my life without her. I never thought I would get to this point but I am getting there. It's really true, time heals all wounds and I now believe that so all that are suffering and in the midst of a horrible period of your life, just know it is only temporary and while it sucks and you feel lost, thing's will get better. You will see the sun again, you will laugh and smile and someday you will just look back with fond memories and not remember the pain you felt in the beginning. Keep your heads up and let time take care of everything. Without a doubt it will! 2
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