Exordium Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 For 3 long years, I have been screwed over too many times. For 7 months, I have been more depressed than I have ever been. It has been really bad lately. I've even been popping pills to try and make the pain go away. It helped for just a little bit, but then I felt worse. I dated someone for 4 or 5 months. She was the love of my life, and I thought that I would end up marrying her. But then, my best friend, who I trusted with everything, took her from me (just to cheat on her the next week) . And she just wants to be friends now. Bad things are happening to a good person like me, and good things are happening to a bad guy like my former best friend. Why does it have to be that way? I've questioned God's existence several times in the past three weeks. I took 10 extra strengths yesterday, laid on the kitchen floor, and cried my eyes out. I've gained about 50 pounds in the past 3 months. I lost the love of my life. I can't get over it. I try to. I want to, but I can't, because I don't see any future relationships for me. I'll end up dying before I'm 20 because I'm that depressed. I have lost all hope. If this is just gonna keep happening, then someone needs to just take my life.
PCS991 Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 For 3 long years, I have been screwed over too many times. For 7 months, I have been more depressed than I have ever been. It has been really bad lately. I've even been popping pills to try and make the pain go away. It helped for just a little bit, but then I felt worse. I dated someone for 4 or 5 months. She was the love of my life, and I thought that I would end up marrying her. But then, my best friend, who I trusted with everything, took her from me (just to cheat on her the next week) . And she just wants to be friends now. Bad things are happening to a good person like me, and good things are happening to a bad guy like my former best friend. Why does it have to be that way? I've questioned God's existence several times in the past three weeks. I took 10 extra strengths yesterday, laid on the kitchen floor, and cried my eyes out. I've gained about 50 pounds in the past 3 months. I lost the love of my life. I can't get over it. I try to. I want to, but I can't, because I don't see any future relationships for me. I'll end up dying before I'm 20 because I'm that depressed. I have lost all hope. If this is just gonna keep happening, then someone needs to just take my life. Hey everyone on this forum has experienced what you are experiencing. Relax and go out this weekend with a whole new outlook. There are thousands of women out there for you.
ChessPieceFace Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 For 3 long years, I have been screwed over too many times. For 7 months, I have been more depressed than I have ever been. It has been really bad lately. I've even been popping pills to try and make the pain go away. It helped for just a little bit, but then I felt worse. I dated someone for 4 or 5 months. She was the love of my life, and I thought that I would end up marrying her. But then, my best friend, who I trusted with everything, took her from me (just to cheat on her the next week) . And she just wants to be friends now. Bad things are happening to a good person like me, and good things are happening to a bad guy like my former best friend. Why does it have to be that way? I've questioned God's existence several times in the past three weeks. I took 10 extra strengths yesterday, laid on the kitchen floor, and cried my eyes out. I've gained about 50 pounds in the past 3 months. I lost the love of my life. I can't get over it. I try to. I want to, but I can't, because I don't see any future relationships for me. I'll end up dying before I'm 20 because I'm that depressed. I have lost all hope. If this is just gonna keep happening, then someone needs to just take my life. Do you still have parents? Cause that's more than I have. Oh you're not even 20 yet? That's hilarious. Yeah I remember being where you are over a girl, at your age. Seemed devastating at the time. Now I look back on it and am glad I am not shackled to her. There's 3.5 billion females in the world. I can't give you meaning for your life but I CAN tell you that what you're going through will pass, that it's possible to be far worse off than you are now, and that it's up to you to get through it and achieve what you want to achieve. Pro-tip - don't sit around wasting your whole life until it crumbles around you and you have no concrete reason to keep living, like I did, and like I face every day.
nerudite Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 Nothing is permanent. Not happiness and not pain. Both are fleeting, life is going to be tough sometimes. But I will tell you, those who experience the most pain usually are the people who truly know happiness when it comes. You can't just wait for inspiration to come to you, you have to go after it with a club. - can't recall offhand the source of that quote, but it's one of my favorites. I'll tell ya a bit about me, and how I've (almost) laid on the kitchen floor, but by damned I kept dragging myself along. My husband of 13 years left me and our two kids for his college student, drained the bank account, I lost my job 3 months later because of the insomnia, couldn't wake up in the morning, going late to work, constant trips to the bathroom because of stress-induced irritable bowel - so they canned me. While still fighting for unemployment my car got repossessed 3 months later, I was horribly behind on my mortgage payment, THEN to top it all off I ended up with a temporary but extremely debilitating medical condition that kept me down for 3 months. At one point, I thought it was all over. But I woke up one day and this sort of epiphany came over me that as long as I was still breathing I had time on my side. Time for all this sh*t to blow over someday. Believe me, there were SO many times I wanted to put a barrell in my mouth, but I kept pushing. Things still aren't totally back to normal a year later, but it's been the worst and best year of my life. If you stay awake, avoid apathy, be gentle with yourself - not too much beating up, just firmness to keep your ass moving along, you'll come out of this a better person. But you have to FIGHT sometimes. Take a day to wallow and lay around, the next get up and fight again. Nothing is permanent, all things pass. I promise. And good things will start to happen to you again. Not because there's a god necessarily but because it's the natural pattern of life. 6
SantistaUSA Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 Cheer up buddy, things will get better! I've been through a lot I'm 34 and my gf just broke up with me (2 hours ago) we were dating for just a month but it still sucks and hurts, and I'm pissed that she waited til the end of our date to do it (cost me $60) lol I've told her hey we could have had a 5 min conversation and saved me $60!!! Money is not the main issue here, but she made the whole date miserable! All she could say was "I'm sorry". Anyways, we all go through tough times like this, try to use it as a learning experience. I'm upset and tomorrow I will probably feel worst after it all sink in, but I will be going out this weekend with friends and move on, that's what you do, keep moving forward! 1
ChessPieceFace Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 She wanted your $60 and anything else you could spend on her before she cut you loose. That's all most western women care about - themselves, and whatever dollar signs they can wring out of you. Bright side - you only wasted a month, and $60 plus whatever else you spent on her. She still ended up doing you a favor! 1
SantistaUSA Posted August 2, 2013 Posted August 2, 2013 She wanted your $60 and anything else you could spend on her before she cut you loose. That's all most western women care about - themselves, and whatever dollar signs they can wring out of you. Bright side - you only wasted a month, and $60 plus whatever else you spent on her. She still ended up doing you a favor! Yeah I know, I should have known better, she is 30 and the longest she ever dated anyone was 4 months and she was 3 years without dating anyone, so huge red flags there. Also sometimes she would say hey wanna go to lunch I'm like sure 90% of the time she wouldn't pay it!!! I think what made her break up was her best female friend (she's 53), her friend was so jealous of me her dating me cause they weren't spending as much time together anymore, it's just sad, but like you said she ended doing me a favor :-)
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