lda12124u Posted October 31, 2004 Posted October 31, 2004 I have talked to as many people i can about my sons father, everyone has advice but i cant seem to hear what i want to hear, because i love him so much. I will start this off by saying he is married, him and his wife are separated she in VA he is in MA with me. I went through the leaving me going back to his wife, being left in VA when i went to meet his mom for the first time at 2 months pregnant, being humiliated in front of friends and family. I have been with him 3 years off and on. He lives with me well he did until Tuesday when we got into a fight over $10.00 its the first time he ever put his hands on me, he left went to stay with a mutual friend. where i live there is a small club that everyone goes to and everyone knows us. i went to the club Friday he was there, i told him i wanted to talk to him, we went outside to talk, i said to him i don't care what u do, just don't disrespect me in front of my family and friends, i also told him that i still love him, and i miss him and broke down and cried he basically walked away. A few minutes passed by after I went back inside the club, i was trying to regroup wipe the tears i go inside the club and he starts dancing with a girl that i already don't like and he knows it, i think he did it on purpose i know he did, so i walked up to them, by the time i got there he started walking away from her so i followed him i was a little buzzed, i told him that i just asked him not to disrespect me, and everyone knows the sometimes we have our little squabbles, and anyway the bouncer of the club grabbed me by the neck, i was telling him that i just want to talk to him, I'm not gonna touch him, so they let me go, when he let me go, i just punched him in his eye, so the bouncer grabbed me again, and while he was holding me, my sons father walked away laughing, that just made me more mad, i got loose from the bouncer grabbed a chair and tried to throw it but four people were trying to take the chair from my hand, the escorted me out the club, i waited for him to come out, but they let him out the back door, anyway i am missing him so much because I went through alot with him, i put up with alot of things that i know i should have left him for, but i love him, i did anything for him that a woman is supposed to do for her man, i was his backbone, we were always together you didn't see one without the other, now i cant sleep good, I'm waking up at 4 every morning, I'm putting our 7 month old in the bed with me cause I'm so used to sleeping with him, i cant sleep by myself, he hasn't tried to contact me at all, he got a room upstairs from his brothers house, it seems like he really has moved on. But i know that he is missing me also, but his pride doesn't let him contact me, and neither will my pride. I'm am not an abusive person or anything, i'm probably one of the nicest people you could ever meet, but he just drives me crazy, and when he hurt me thats all i could do, i regret hitting him, because i do love him, but he is always hurting me, everyone is like if yall aint together why do u care if he dances with someone else, i say because we have broken up before adn a few days latter get back together, and he just left Tuesday and by Friday he was acting like he didn't care, i don't understand how someone can love you then pick up and move on so quickly, now all I'm doing is carrying the phone around with me, waiting for it to ring but its never him think i am gonna end up having a break down or something, i cant deal with this after i a went through with him and forgave him for, how he cant do the same for me. I came here to hear what views anyone has on this.
bluechocolate Posted October 31, 2004 Posted October 31, 2004 i don't understand how someone can love you then pick up and move on so quickly, now all I'm doing is carrying the phone around with me, waiting for it to ring What don't you understand exactly? This has been on & off with you two for 3 years so you know that phone is going to ring & he's gonna come back to you for more. One of you has got to stop this madness, why don't you do it first? Let him walk out of your life for good & see if things don't get better.
innocntlisy1981 Posted November 1, 2004 Posted November 1, 2004 first of all u go girl!!he deserved it!!ive been in this situation im not violent either enver have been but there was this one jerk who just made me snap!!ive left him now as i think u should leave urs!!either that or play him at his own games i would!!good luk
Author lda12124u Posted November 1, 2004 Author Posted November 1, 2004 I would like to be able to be strong enough to forget about him, but it's hard considering i have a child with him. We usually get back together when stuff like this happens, but now that he has rented a place i'm not sure if i can accept that it might be over, after all i went through. I still love him and i feel lost without him.
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