Starbreaker Posted July 29, 2013 Posted July 29, 2013 (edited) I can't believe how much I loved you. You were my soulmate, my first love and you used me, abused me and lied the entire time I thought I knew you. You ruined my self-esteem. Everything I ever overcame and was proud of you put down. Even in my greatest moment, you had to make it about you and cheated on me with your ex. When you finally got the guts to tell me (before my friend did) you told me it was to 'get over me" while YOU broke up with me, which I was the last to know about. I must have read all those 'I love you, good luck!' messages you sent me wrong while I was overseas? Every thought I had was 'stupid' every dream I shared with you was 'idealist' and all of my friends and hobbies were 'lame'. I'm sorry I don't want to get drunk at bars every chance I get. That I want to use the talent you said I 'don't have' for good instead of wasting it on drinking or drugs. But what I'm really sorry about is I gave you enough of my precious time for you to hit me in the jaw and punch me in the temple for trying to take your car keys so you wouldn't drive drunk. That I let you far enough into my head that I actually hate myself for not being able to have children in the future, that you got away with calling me a 'deadbeat' and saying 'I can't hold a kid' because I have misscarraiges when I tried to conceive in my previous relationship. I'm glad you might lose your career, because you didn't care about me possibly losing mine or what could've happened if I got hurt while you drove drunk. I'm not 'retarded' or 'stupid' or a 'sl*t'. I'm a loyal and honest human being with a lot of love to give the next guy who will never ever be as low as you because he'll be too happy soaking up what you missed out on. Goodbye, "rock star"! Edited July 30, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator Spelling
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