ex86 Posted July 28, 2013 Posted July 28, 2013 I was with my boy friend for 2/12 years and have never loved anyone so much in my life. We talked about a future, kids, etc... Im 27 and currently traveling across OZ ive spent time in indo aswell ive been out side the uk for 5 months and come to the relalisation i still completely love my ex. I left him 4 months before i left the uk, saved like mad and jumped on a plain... i always wanted to travel to proove to my self i could and now i feel like ive grown up allot, shaken things up to get the perspective to help to realise so much stuff about myself. i messed him around allot before i left, he stopped talking to me in the end, changed his number, blocked me on fb and ignored all emails. I don't regret being together, I just regret that I wasn't grown up or balanced enough to love him the way he deserved to be loved. I still love Him. Which is kind of annoying because it means I think about him all the time. When really I want to be totally free. But I'm not, and that's my heart and my head still feeling so connected to him. I'm used to it, and have excepted it now. I'm not sure why this has built up so much in my head. Maybe because finally, I know what I feel. Because I can be entirely honest with him, I have no reason not to be. I'm sat here, on the other side of the world and he is the only person I want to talk to.... A mutial friend has said he hasnt moved on and still loves me... what shall i do? i miss him and want him back.
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