Hope737 Posted July 26, 2013 Posted July 26, 2013 Ok guys so I'm not a regular poster here so you probably won't be familiar with my story. Anwayway I'm guessing a lot of you know how it feels. You meet your perfect partner, they're gorgeous, on the same wavelength, you're best friends and you can't imagine anyone better than them to ever step into your life. That one life you have on this planet is perfect with them. You click on every level. That's exactly how I felt. There's only one girl so far in my life that I have looked at in the way that I looked at her. We spent a wonderful time together however she ended up cheating on me and from then on I have never been able to fully be myself again. We're both 23 and have known eachother since 16. Probably been in a relationship for about 5 years all together. What I'm trying to say is, don't go down the same route I have. As soon as I found out she was cheating I couldn't handle it. I loved her with all my heart, why would she go and betray me? I guess for excitement or something different in her life. The painful part is...she doesn't know that i know that she cheated on me (if that makes sense). I just let her go. After I found out what she was doing behind my back I just couldn't confront her about it. I just cut her out of my life. Stupid I know. The pain it causes to let someone you love truly go is the hardest thing in the world. I've now turned to alcohol as a way of coping with my feelings as Im destroyed inside. I have no reason to live a happy life without her by my side. I look at other girls, I get out with friends, focus on my job but she always appears back in my mind. It's as if I'm destined to be with no one but her. Very hard to accept. This break up was SIX MONTHS ago. Yes I know the way I'm reacting at the minute is not healthy but I just wanted to get something off my chest. I'm probably spouting off a load of rubbish here but it's helped a little to just type it all out!
OverThinker72 Posted July 26, 2013 Posted July 26, 2013 I can relate to what you are going through. It's only been 2 weeks since my boyfriend broke up with me. He also cheated on me or was already emotionally attached to someone else when he ended it. He doesn't know that I know either. I let him go without a fight and have made no contact since the break up. So how do I know? I came home tipsy last Saturday and checked his FB profile and there he was, pics of him and his girlfriend. We had only been apart 1 week and these pics were taken while we were still together. I sometimes want to contact him to let him know that I know but what's the point? I too feel that I will never move on from this. I got completely plastered for days but really drink does nothing but depress you more. I sincerely hope you find a way to move on. It hurts to breathe right now and how ever much I keep myself occupied, nothing takes the pain and missing him away. I just wish he was an arsehole so that I could hate him, but he was a good boyfriend, warm and loving. We just have to fight harder to get out of this depressing hole. Good luck x
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