laceyjane Posted July 26, 2013 Posted July 26, 2013 Just start missing your ex so much but you don't want to contact them. You just start being at a point where you just cherish the good memories but not hope for things to be the same again because you know it's really over. You're just not bitter anymore and just accept reality. It's been a roller coaster of emotions. We all do what we gotta do to move on. Just keep hanging in there. Things get better. Sometimes it gets bad in the middle of the process but I promise you, time really do heal all wounds. You may still cry sometimes but be glad that you do, it's better than not feeling anything at all.
supaflyz Posted July 26, 2013 Posted July 26, 2013 Yeah there are times where I miss her so much and lonely that I want to contact her. However, I realized that I need to practice what I preach. I give others advice but don't even listen to my own advice. I haven't contacted her over a month. Its been 3 months since we broke up. I use to write a journal of all the memories that we shared. I know that some memories may fade. The journal will be the only thing left that will remind me of her and the good times we had. The relationship wasn't that long, but to me it was the best time I ever had. She came into my life when I was down. I had no hope left. I thought she was the one that would finally stay and help me through my trouble times. I know I can't expect anyone to make me feel happy. I really thought she was the one. She came into my life when I started to go back to church. I was always a good little boy and going to church school. Then some things happen that sway me away from God. I thought it was a sign from God to send me an angel. She was nice, smart, beautiful, elegant, but yet so natural. She didn't really care about what others think. On our third date she was dabbling the oil off of the bacon. I was aghast but yet like her even more. Other girls that I have went out on dates with were so "girly" to say the least. We spent almost everyday with each other. We share the fun times, the bad times, the laughter, the secrets, and even the tears. She was the one that I actually open up to. I was always embarrass about my past. I finally open up and told her what happen. I never told any of those secrets to anyone. She made me feel whole. Then she left me when I really needed her. It came as a total surprise. I remember that Friday morning as if it just happen. I got her a yellow daisy and some chocolates. We had an exam that day. I knew something was up by the way she look at me. I couldn't even concentrated on the exam. Somehow with the help of God I manage to pull out a really high grade. I was afraid I fail the program altogether before that exam. I was devastated. I felt so lost. There wasn't any motivation to do anything. My life is back to what it was before she came. The day that I knew she was really gone was when we saw each other on the hallway. It was an empty hallway. I left the room early hoping to catch her as she left. I looked at her as she came out. Then she just walk past by. Two lovers that became strangers again. She moved on, and I moved on as well. Only memories are what is left of us. Time does heal the wounds. I was bitter at first, but now everytime I think of her I just smile. I knew she is a good person, and that we had some really fun times together. In the end I understand that the feelings just dwindle. I want to apologize to her, but I know it's too soon. I actually wrote her an apology letter. I really took time into it. I just never sent it to her knowing that it will probably set me back.
unexpectedlyhere Posted July 26, 2013 Posted July 26, 2013 I had some of that yesterday. I'm just so sad at how unhappy he must have been to walk out, and at how we used to be so good, and it's just so sad that we weren't as good and he lost the ability to see that we could be that good again.
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