chinacat sunflower Posted July 25, 2013 Posted July 25, 2013 Well that bittersweet day has come. He's in a new relationship. I was crushed at first. But I can actually say that now, I have never felt better about myself. She's a very pretty girl, but I feel prettier. My life is in shambles, but I still feel like I'm a cooler chick than she is. I don't know why I'm feeling like this, but this is a huge step for me. I have spent so much time feeling poorly about myself, it feels so nice to have some confidence back. And I'm dating. Nothing serious, because, well, I'm all set with anything serious for awhile. I'm happy. I can't say I'm over him. But I feel good about myself, and in the grand scheme of things, that is what matters. Everyday that goes by, the more I feel like the relationship was a dream. Like it never really happened. It's kind of surreal. Hopefully one day I won't even remember his existence, like he forgot mine. For everyone that is hurting: it gets better, I promise
Philosoraptor Posted July 25, 2013 Posted July 25, 2013 It's good to hear that you're feeling good about yourself, but how did you come across this knowledge that he's in a new relationship?
Author chinacat sunflower Posted July 27, 2013 Author Posted July 27, 2013 It's good to hear that you're feeling good about yourself, but how did you come across this knowledge that he's in a new relationship? Snooping around on Facebook..........the worst part is, we are not even friends I'm determined to get through this without having to deactivate my account though. It's been so long it really doesn't even matter anymore. I've come to the realization that it is my ego that is bruised more than anything. He never even made me laugh that often, which is a huge deal. I smile and laugh everyday, I surround myself with people that love/want to be around me. I have been my own worst enemy through out this grieving process. A lesson I'm finally learning! 1
jesse93 Posted July 27, 2013 Posted July 27, 2013 I can't blame you its hard keeping NC as hard as you want to try to keep NC sometimes you just end up giving in, but i hope things get better for you keep your head up and keep moving forward one day you'll find someone new as well and he will just me a memory to you 1
groupergirl Posted July 27, 2013 Posted July 27, 2013 I can't blame you its hard keeping NC as hard as you want to try to keep NC sometimes you just end up giving in, but i hope things get better for you keep your head up and keep moving forward one day you'll find someone new as well and he will just me a memory to you Guys, I was totally devastated when I joined this site, I mean totally hurt, dumped, used, not loved, heck his flag doesn't raise up the pole. It does get better, I have refused to break the NC rule. Going since 5/28. I am not sure if I want to hear from him. I am not where I want to be but I know the worst is over and it keeps getting better. I continue to remind myself about the negative things about him and I just continue to live. Keep Living!!! 1
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