sleepstalker Posted July 25, 2013 Posted July 25, 2013 (edited) This last year I have been through utter complete hell. Long Story Short, my girl left me. I really thought she was the one. She set me up to chase me big time. I screwed the relationship up by not being a proper boyfriend. Just not knowing how to act. I always had women in my life for a short term. The first time I want a long term girl and the first time I fell in love I blew it. To say I was devastated was a understatement. Its a LONG story. But she didnt love me. Now she is with someone else and having a baby. I think it was born this month. When she left me, I could tell she wasn't happy. She refused to look or talk to me. I cant find any girl now for me. I ONLY want her. Or girls that look identical to her and sound like her. It sounds stupid but the only thing keeping me alive is the hope that I will find her twin(not really related to her). I have too recently but its a girl who lives far away and I have no plan to approach her. She is a cop and I dont want to look like stalker weird. She was in a YouTube vid. Anyway... I am in SO much pain. I want to cry everyday. I have one friend. No job, no money, just graduated school and I hate my major. Some days I dont even want to go on. I feel like she and I were meant to be. She mis-judged me. God please if you can hear me, send me my angel. It sucks to live in this pain, this fear. I remember the days when I was a free spirit not feeling the heaviness of the day. I cant go back. Edited July 25, 2013 by sleepstalker
BLS Posted July 25, 2013 Posted July 25, 2013 Preemptively stating this: we have all been there, your feelings are genuine and we are sorry to hear that you are in your current emotional state. All of us here on LS can relate to some degree. That being said, move on. That's it. Set some goals. No job? Get a job. No money? Make money. No friends? Make some new ones. Come out of your shell. Immediately I can tell that this girl was your life, never make that mistake again. Starting today, STOP IT. Realize that to all outsiders you are week. Start NC. Don't speak to her. Set your goals and go for them. Work as hard as you possibly can to achieve them. Indulge in new and exciting activities. Regain some sense of self worth, because YOU are worth it. No Excuses.
Author sleepstalker Posted July 26, 2013 Author Posted July 26, 2013 (edited) Preemptively stating this: we have all been there, your feelings are genuine and we are sorry to hear that you are in your current emotional state. All of us here on LS can relate to some degree. That being said, move on. That's it. Set some goals. No job? Get a job. No money? Make money. No friends? Make some new ones. Come out of your shell. Immediately I can tell that this girl was your life, never make that mistake again. Starting today, STOP IT. Realize that to all outsiders you are week. Start NC. Don't speak to her. try your goals and go for them. Work as hard as you possibly can to achieve them. Indulge in new and exciting activities. Regain some sense of self worth, because YOU are worth it. No Excuses. Thanks, its almost been a year. I just am finding it ALMOST impossible to go on. I have nothing to love anymore. Family doesn't bother with me. I feel like I literally got nothing. Still not giving up. I promise everyone I am fighting everyday and I am trying. Calling for a job today. Still have bad dreams, worry about her, what she thinks of me and I miss her ALOT. The nice her, not the person I saw in those last months who threw me away. Edited July 26, 2013 by sleepstalker
skydiveaddict Posted July 26, 2013 Posted July 26, 2013 Anyway... I am in SO much pain. I want to cry everyday. Aye mate. Been there. The best defense and source of healing is to never trust a girl again. You must learn to believe your gut and never buy the female lie. If it truly happens, you will know it. Otherwise it's all bs.
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