amkxoxo Posted July 20, 2013 Posted July 20, 2013 I'm 21 and a virgin. I consider myself proud of it because I have morals and know many girls to sleep around in college. I'm not the strict wait until marriage type, I've just never been in a serious relationship which I feel is necessary to start having a sex life. I've dated just never connected enough to see someone seriously. I am inexperienced so a little nervous and unsure about how to initiate affection and intimacy. Also I had a bad experience when I was in high school and finally was able to be more open to things in college. Well long story short I started dating this guy this past spring and he was very experienced. I liked it. We fooled around and I learned to love it and actually crave it. We didn't have sex because we never were in an official relationship. Maybe if I wasn't a virgin and more aggressive we probably would have. He would always say how his sex drive was great but he was fine with us waiting since we connected so well on an emotional level. So back to my topic.... I went further with this guy than anyone else and he showed me how great being close and intimate can be. I love it and want it and think I am totally ready and mature enough to have sex. We would sleep next to each other all the time and I love it. Well we have since gone to a long distance dating scenario and have since decided to not pursue a relationship right now due to his personal reasons. He thinks that we can have a great relationship in the future. I love this guy and literally cannot picture getting close and intimate with anyone else. Thinking if it makes me sick. I miss sleeping next to him , kissing him, etc... like a bunch of my co workers all have like sex lives or boyfriends and girlfriends and I feel like I'm missing out. Like they talk and joke about it. I feel out of place and stupid for being 21 and a virgin. Like I haven't found anyone, or I thought I did but like I'm still alone. Like I'm a sweet, pretty, smart girl. I'm ready for a relationship...all of it emotional and physical.
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