mbethb Posted July 18, 2013 Posted July 18, 2013 Today and yesterday have been bad days. I know it's going to be a rollercoaster but coming off of several days feeling quite good about what's going on is making the last few days seem dark. I so wish I could go NC. If only we didn;t have children. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids but really that's the only reason we need to talk and it would be so much easier if I could avoid the communication. And where the hell are my signd disolution of marriage papers? I gave them to him almost two weeks ago! I just want to more forward!
hayewils Posted July 19, 2013 Posted July 19, 2013 Do you have an attorney? Did you sign paperwork with him agreeing on stipulations? Meaning, visitation with the children, who has custody, that sort of thing? I'm kinda wondering what did you sign and give to him, does he have an attorney that you don't know about? Your paperwork may be with his attorney that you don't know about.. Think of that?
Author mbethb Posted July 19, 2013 Author Posted July 19, 2013 My father is an attorney. STBX has not retained counsel. The dissolution of marriage is just that. And yes, he takes all debt, we split assets and share the kids 50/50.
Author mbethb Posted July 21, 2013 Author Posted July 21, 2013 Well, I got my answer. Got the signed papers today. I'm so heartbroken. It's not that I thought there was hope of reconciliation but the finality of the signed papers is making me so very, very sad. I just want to cry but I know I need to keep it together until the kids are in bed. How did this happen to my marriage, what the f--- happened to my husband? Need to remind myself that person is long gone.
Author mbethb Posted July 23, 2013 Author Posted July 23, 2013 What a miserable 48hrs. I really wish I didn't have to work today. I'd love to stay in bed for about a millennia. Stbx came to get the kids and told me I looked great. Really? Nice touch. I wonder how great his gf looks. Doing the 180 though. Smiled, said thank you. I know I couldn't and wouldn't ever take him back but it's so tiresome dealing with all these emotions. I wake up two hours early out of a dream of us as a family. Honestly, I wish I could be hypnotized to forget the memories. Or, "glamoured" for my trueblood watchers.
WreckedDan Posted July 23, 2013 Posted July 23, 2013 I told my stbx to stop with the positive comments. She said she would try and that it was force of habit. You will have to comunicate with him, so be honest about yoir feelings but avoid detail. This will get better, hang in there and keep putting one foot infront of the other... cheaters cheat down, and we destroyed ones get rebuilt better and have options because we arent running from some thing... Best I got tonight, Dan
Author mbethb Posted July 23, 2013 Author Posted July 23, 2013 Thanks, Dan. The effort is appreciated! Feeling better now that the sun is up. I hate waking in the night panicking with grief. Things just seem darker in the dark I guess.
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