Sweett Posted July 16, 2013 Posted July 16, 2013 I wish i could turn off my mind!!! I don't know what to do or why i can't let go and rid this person of my thoughts. I guess i expected him to be something he is not. But the way he ignored me really bothers me!!! Blocked my number and i called from another phone and he hung up on me when he identified my voice. I did nothing wrong but yet i beat myself up. I've known him about 6 months. This person disrespected me by getting wasted on our date and sleep walking and peeing on my floor, lives with his mom ( he thinks i don't know this) was arrested last year, has kids he doesn't see but yet i feel like he tossed me like a piece of trash. Maybe my problem is i think this person will change and be the person i want him to be but with someone else and i will miss out. Weird right? What is wrong with me. I don't get this. I should be happy he deleted himself from my life but instead im taking it personal when clearly i did nothing wrong other than tell him what he did to my carpet..help!???
Frank13 Posted July 17, 2013 Posted July 17, 2013 You know what it is? It is ego. The thing is, you look at someone like that, see that they are a loser, and think that there must be something really wrong with you if someone even this bad doesn't want you. It plays on your vanity. You want him to want you, just to prove to yourself that you are loveable. Had he been a rich handsome movie star, or even an àverage guy, it wouldn't hurt as much. It just makes you feel like if the worst person in the world doesn't want you, no one else will. It is irrational thinking. Not everyone is right for everyone no matter if they are a loser or not. He may even have broken up because he was ashamed of living at home and knew you would find out if things progressed 1
Author Sweett Posted July 17, 2013 Author Posted July 17, 2013 You know what it is? It is ego. The thing is, you look at someone like that, see that they are a loser, and think that there must be something really wrong with you if someone even this bad doesn't want you. It plays on your vanity. You want him to want you, just to prove to yourself that you are loveable. Had he been a rich handsome movie star, or even an àverage guy, it wouldn't hurt as much. It just makes you feel like if the worst person in the world doesn't want you, no one else will. It is irrational thinking. Not everyone is right for everyone no matter if they are a loser or not. He may even have broken up because he was ashamed of living at home and knew you would find out if things progressed Good point. Never really had someone put it that way but in regards to me finding out about his living arrangement my friends told me the same thing and that maybe he rejected me before i rejected him in a sense... All good points but still sucks.
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