Fiona101 Posted July 14, 2013 Posted July 14, 2013 (edited) He's a taurus with venus in aries. We were together for 7 months. I'm a pisces. I was having a bad day. I always felt like he never had time for me.I was crying and I kept telling him he didn't love me and stuff. He kept denying to the point that he got frustrated and broke up with me saying he doesn't want to hurt me. I begged and plead but it was no use. I saw him the next day at school but we didn't talk and it killed me. 2 days passed by and I texted him. We talked, he said he adored me but that I always thought he never loved me and that would hurt him a lot. So then he told me he had to go but that if I wanted he would call me back. He came back at 1:00 in the morning apologizing saying hes guessing I'm asleep and to call him the next day in the morning. I didn't respond until the next day that I talked to his mom before. She told me he was out in dolphin with his friends and that he still loved me. She recommended going NC so he'll miss me. I texted him right after very calmly and politely that I was ending the conversation that I initiated yesterday and that at 1:00 in the morning I'm at home sleeping cause I'm a good girl. He replies saying: Why do you think I went off and did something bad? I replied saying: It doesn't matter who you were with. It matters that you did it without me and now I finally understand what I didn't want to understand. He replies saying : Can we still talk now and then? I said what is there to talk about? and he replies : fine if that's what you want. I guess I'll see you in school. I didn't answer until way later that I pretended to send him a wrong text. We started talking normally. I was like: Why are you so happy today? he says: I'm not I'm in a normal mood :0 hbu? I'm like : I'm in a pretty cheerful mood and he replies saying: That's good <3<3 with hearts and I put it back. 3 days later, I have a class with him. I sit next to him. He makes a joke saying my girlfriend's mad at me. I look at him with a wtf face and he goes I'm jk. During the entire day he acted as if we were still dating. He held my hand, he kissed me more than ONCE. I asked him if he was playing with me and he said no that he still loved me. He even hugged me from behind, it was sweet. but then after class, he said he wanted to talk to me and all he did was reject me again saying that he was sorry but he couldn't do it. But asked me for one last kiss and I said no. I walked away in the opposite direction because I was upset and he grabbed me by the arm and pulled me closer. I shove him and walk down the stairs and he chases me and kisses me again. Then a few minutes after he texts me telling me not to tell anyone. I ask him why and he says because he's ashamed that he disrespected me. I asked him why he did it and he said because he was weak and couldn't contain himself but that he wasn't going to do it again. I told him I still had hope because he said he had loved me and he says no you misunderstood me I meant I love you as a person. I honestly don't believe that but whatever.. I told him that I wasn't stupid enough to believe that all he did meant nothing and I know why because you're stubborn thats why he won't admit it. and he said thats why I don't want you to wait for me cause I'm stubborn.. then he puts a sad face looking down. I asked him if he wanted me to give up and he told me if that's what it takes for me not to wait for him. So I asked him again. Say yes or no. Do you want me to stop loving you? he says No, but if thats what it takes for me not to wait. UGH, wtf he's so confusing. He wants me to keep loving him but not to wait? -_- anyways, I said I guess I have no choice and I gtg bye. he goes: Do you have to leave? and he puts another sad face. I'm like yes I'm busy, why? He says: I like talking to you :0 I say okay and nothing else. the next day in class I acted super cold to him and he noticed. He asked me why I was mad at him. I said I wasn't. I walk away and he follows me. I tell him to go away. He says this isn't you, why are you like this? I'm like maybe you haven't met me when I'm trying to move on. He gives me a sad look and hugs me tightly I push away until he let go and he sat down with a deppressed look on his face. He didn't talk to anyone after that. The next class, I was in a school field trip but I had to go to class to ask if I can take the test another day and the teacher said its now or you get an F. I told her I didn't have a pencil and he raises his pencil as if he were offering it. I ignored it.My friend said when I walked out of the classroom he stared at me with a look of desire. I texted him that night telling him I still had feelings but that doesn't mean I expect him to change his mind. He replied saying he understands. I ask him if he has something to say to me as well and he says no, that he'll always want to be my friend and stuff. ( That hurt ) In the last day of school, he walked up to me from a huge distance just to hug me and say "See you next year". We have been NC a month since that. Oh and I returned a promise necklace he gave me with our initials on it to his mail with a letter saying : "I don't want to keep this, you decide if you want to throw it away or not." I wonder how he reacted to that.. Will he come back? I'm gonna see him at school in a month and I'm going to have a new look by that time Does he still have feelings for me? Also, I don't know how I should react when I see him? Should I be nice? If he offers me a hug do I reject it? Should I ignore him? I'm desperate for answers.. PLEASE HELP. Edited July 14, 2013 by Fiona101
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