SkyWheel Posted July 13, 2013 Posted July 13, 2013 We were together nearly 4 years. I haven't given up hope that he'll come back, but tomorrow marks 2 months since the break up and I'm still very miserable. We were largely long distance, but the split happened during one of our visits. I'm trying to remember that it was likely due to his issues--after all, he was the one who said he wanted time to sort himself out--but I can't stop beating myself up and wishing I'd been more affectionate that morning. He'd just graduated and finished the degree that had been very difficult for him and had separated us to begin with. I stood by him through every moment of that degree as much as I could and it hurts to think we ended right after it. He'd been freaked out by the degree repeatedly over and over and had begun to pull away during that final semester at times, but it was always because of school and stress. My dog passed away the day of his graduation. He's starting grad school--a year-long program. I want to believe his actions are just a result of all the stress of everything happening all at once, but I'm impatient and I want to know we'll be together again. Just days before we were discussing moving in together. I talked to him two weeks after the split and he said he just wanted time and space to himself. I asked if there was anyone else and he said no. I'm trying to believe that and trust him. I asked if there was a chance for us to be together again and he said he just needed time and space; he didn't know. The final verdict was "I guess we'll see how the summer goes." I haven't heard from him since. Trying to keep giving him space and maintain no contact on my end but God I miss him. I pray he isn't trying to let me down easy. We were each other's first everything. I miss him. I don't want to let go. This is killing me.
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