ladyjaie7 Posted July 9, 2013 Posted July 9, 2013 This is my first time posting here but I've been following this site for 2 years and 2 relationships. This has helped me get through really hard breakups. I have had a rough year and a half and just don't know how to deal with everything. I broke up with a boyfriend I was dating for 5 months and took me just as long to get over it. Then I got bed bugs which is horrific and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy and I was supposed to move into an apt that fell through and had to store my furniture in my friends garage that now has termites.. sigh During the bed bug incident I met a guy ..turns out this guy would be my next boyfriend. I fell in love with him more than I have ever fallen before, we were together for about a year. We had some issues during the relationship, he wouldn't open up to me never really call but I would stay over alot at his place. We talked about vacations met family and friends and really saw a future with him. It all went down hill when he finally told me 6 months in he wasn't happy with a lot of things but he held it in. He chose to do this while he was drinking and told my friends. We tried to work it out after but it just didn't work. He always seemed annoyed I was around and just seemed different. He told me he was suffering depression and he wanted a part time gf. He would get mad at me and say the meanest things sometimes but I told him I would stick by him. Until I just couldnt take the emotional distance and the fact he seemed like i was a burden I told him he needed to get help and I couldnt stay if things were the same. He said he needs to work on himself alone. i emailed him saying how i was sorry he was suffering through depression and gave him a website and doctors to see and told him i would be there for him. he said he was too busy to get help right now that was 2 months ago, and now my beloved dog died. It was all my fault, i gave him a treat before I went grocery shopping for 2 hours and he choked on it and died I am devastated the guilt and loss has consumed me. I reached out to my ex via email to tell him and he got back to me 4 hours later eventhough he read it in the morning. I told him how it was my fault and how devastated i was and he said he was so sorry. during this grieving period, I miss my dog and my boyfriend so much. I don't know what to do. It seems like he just completely got over me. He didnt call me or anything. I dont know what to do..
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted July 9, 2013 Posted July 9, 2013 So very sorry about your dog But you could never have predicted that. The boyfriend? Just seems like he's got issues that you're probably better off not having to deal with. "dodged a bullet" as they say. I'm just so sorry about your dog- I am very close to mine, I can imagine how you feel. No words for that
Author ladyjaie7 Posted July 9, 2013 Author Posted July 9, 2013 thank you for the kind words ..it was all my fault and the guilt will never leave me. I should have known better than to give him the treat. It was a round meatball treat and he was a small yorkie. He most likely choked the minute I stepped out the door. I will never forgive myself ever for what I have caused.
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