princepwnage Posted July 9, 2013 Posted July 9, 2013 Aloha, first time poster here. A friend recommended this site to me a while ago and I lurked for a bit and thought it would help me in a way, get over what is happening to me. Its a long read I know, but I just had to express myself to help get over this. w I met J, when I was 19. We both graduated in the same High School but never knew each other. We met through mutal friends, I expressed attraction. We dated immediately for about a month. It the night before Christmas, and she worked that night at a famous hotel in so I went out with my friends and partied. One of my ex's were there last night, we talked alot and ended up sleeping with each other that night. I told her the next morning, but she didn't reply back to me via phone or text for a week. But she comes over a few days later, and tells me she was with someone else to get revenge on me. So I tell her, I really want to be with you, it was a mistake, but I genuinely want to be with you. So she agreed, and we moved in with each other about a week later. For the next 2 years we live happily, both working, both making money. We had a nice house, we had nice cars, we were in love. Then one day... We rent a room at the hotel she was working at, being young and dumb she came up with the idea of stealing clothes from a retail store in the hotel where she worked at. All went good, we had dinner and went for a swim. About 15 minutes into the swim, we were approached by 3 security officers, they ask us to come with them. They escort us to the security room, and we totally know what is going on, and we knew we were in trouble. J says the guy were talking to is head security for the hotel, which is a 5 star resort btw, so they are pretty legit. He says, what do you have to say? We have all the information on you guys, security cameras, room number you charge the bill to, all the dumb **** we pulled on our mini-vacay. We both said what we did, and he let us go without calling the cops. She obviously was fired on the spot. I still had my job doing computer work. So we lived off of that for about 5 months. Soon enough, all of our money was gone. I guess I didn't make enough or we were spending our money foolishly. Ill never forget the month we couldn't make rent. She cried so hard. I asked my family members to let us stay there so we can get back on our feet. One after another, they kicked us out, for their own reasons. Then we started living in our mazda 6, having no direction, no where to go. We started to be squatters, stealing food from the supermarkets, inviting ourselves to parties of people we had no idea who they were. She hated it, and so did I, with no work, no money, no where to go. She wanted to leave, her brother paid for her ticket to fly back to guam, btw I am in Hawaii. She said two weeks till I leave. I panicked. I lost my ****. How after everything we been though, the ups and the downs, your going to leave me now? She said she loved me, but we needed to fix ourselves. 2 weeks go by, I dread the countdown everyday. 14, 13, 12, 11 etc.. I try to cherish the moments I have left with her, I loved her so much, and shes leaving me. I felt like crying every night. The day of her departure comes around. We wake up in our car as usual. Make about our day, trying not to remember, this is the last day we will ever see each other again. We take pictures before she leaves and we both said, we will keep this forever. It was one of those booth things that are at the movies and everywhere. I cried all day after she was gone. She said she will be back... Its been 3 years since that day. Since she landed, we got on the phone, skyped, texted. All the things we could use to communicate we did. Time rolled on, days then weeks, then months, then years. We lost each other. There was no communication anymore, besides the hellos, how are yous, how was your day. We get into an argument about our situations. She was doing good, she loved it there, and she had family there. I barely had my family anymore, no one cared about me, and I was still financially stuck. She had enough, I didn't change, I was still the same guy 3 years ago who couldn't get us out of the whole, I couldn't man up and take charge. She then blocks me from all form of communication, with the last message Ill ever read from her again saying, "Move on, I am seeing someone and I am in love with him. : ) ". That ****ing smiley face got me. And that was that. I never talked to her again. Vanished from the face of the earth. The only person I cared about in my entire life is gone...
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted July 9, 2013 Posted July 9, 2013 Wow, very sad. Sounds like the two of you were just too young. Sucks that this is three years later, and yeah the smiley face was a needless kick to your balls. Sorry man.
flitzanu Posted July 9, 2013 Posted July 9, 2013 it certainly sucks, but at this point you really don't have any other options except to move on. whatever happened in the past is certainly now in the past. 1
Author princepwnage Posted July 9, 2013 Author Posted July 9, 2013 I didnt know what to write, what I said was very in the moment. I know it doesnt mean that much to all of you. But theres a reason were all here. I need to make myself happy before I can make someone else happy is what I learned. Never take something for granted. What you have now might disappear someday if you don't treat him/her right. 1
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