Ethliz Posted July 8, 2013 Posted July 8, 2013 (edited) We met in senior year of high school; we were each other's first everything. It was lovely until around a year he broke it off with me without reason, I cried I went through depression, until I read on Facebook he had moved on and gotten a girlfriend; that's when the healing began. I found myself a boyfriend, someone I really liked yet I still saw him in his eyes. When my ex found out he decided to contact me asking for forgiveness saying he was moving away, a few days later i 'm visiting him in the hospital, he had tried commuting suicide, he asked to go back with him I refused; that night I slept with my boyfriend (Thanksgiving Day). 2 months went by with my ex pleading me to take him back, he promised the stars, happiness, everything a girl could ever dream of so I took him back. (He knew that I had slept with the other guy but even so he wanted me with him). We moved in together in an apartment, it was lovely at first then it wasn't, our sexual life was terrible, my high blood pressure got the best of me. We argued and disagreed a lot. I felt unwanted; his cat got more love than I did. Anyways, after a year and a half I moved out, he joined the Army but before he joined we got back together. I would write him letters almost everyday to help him get through basic training, he even asked to marry me but i wanted to wait until he graduated basic. After basic he changed, my grandmother died and a week later he broke up with me. His reasons were that we had "poisoned" each other and the fact that he can't get over me sleeping with another guy when we had broken up. He said I was special because I was his first now I'm just like any other girl. He left the Army met a girl at a store and slept with her just recently, a virgin, they had sex 3 times, in the car, her bed and then her sofa. He told me the details, it's how much he wants me out of his life. Told me that she's just not me and that's what he liked most about her. She's very pretty, they have a lot in common but doesn't think she's the one and doesn't see himself having a family with her. I still love him, I might be crazy, I just don't know. At every break up he has yelled at me, one point even closed the door at my face. I ask myself what I've done to deserve this. I'm hard headed, deeply in love, not sure if it's normal. I wish I hated him but it's not in me. I'm a simple girl with a lot of love and unfortunately all that love is his. I need help, I know I do. A word, some advice, anything would help. I'm emotionally destroyed, this was the man I was going to marry, the one I love. What can I do? Edited July 8, 2013 by Ethliz
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