LostGirl11 Posted July 5, 2013 Posted July 5, 2013 I'm around 3 weeks NC. I remember the night when I decided enough is enough. I'm not sure what happend, I think I exhausted myself with it all. I didn't feel much of an urge to contact him but the depression and anxiety kicked in, I done something about it staright away and went to see my doctor. The medication has worked wonders. I've removed him from that pedestal and I no longer romanticize him. I see him for what he really is. Simple as that. I'm not sure if it's the meds that have hepled me see the light or what. I find myself snearing when I think about him now Honestly, he makes me sick! Never thought I'd be able to say that. I'm slightly annoyed that I still feel emotion for him, even if it is anger/hate. He doesn't even deseve the head space.
Sneaky Posted July 5, 2013 Posted July 5, 2013 I'm guessing even the anger will pass until you are just indifferent. Good job on your three weeks, stay the course. 3
Chi townD Posted July 5, 2013 Posted July 5, 2013 LET IT OUT, GIRL!!!! Vent away! That's what we're here for. And there's nothing wrong with seeing a doctor and being placed on meds to help you get through the tough times. Now that your head is on straight, time to make a gameplan for self improvements to your life. 1
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 5, 2013 Author Posted July 5, 2013 LET IT OUT, GIRL!!!! Vent away! That's what we're here for. And there's nothing wrong with seeing a doctor and being placed on meds to help you get through the tough times. Now that your head is on straight, time to make a gameplan for self improvements to your life. He messed up my summer last year and he had me in tears with his games over the christmas period. This year is going to be different. No more drama! I seem to get nostalgic on warm summer nights but it won't last long, I'm remembering the bad too much.
Chi townD Posted July 5, 2013 Posted July 5, 2013 Then treat yourself. It's the summer! Grab some girlfriends and have a get away weekend! Make a gameplan and go somewhere! Somewhere new and somewhere fun! You deserve it don't you? Whether it's going to the mountains or sun and surf! Do something different and adventurous! GO!!!! Get busy!!! Tell me about it when you get back!
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 5, 2013 Author Posted July 5, 2013 Then treat yourself. It's the summer! Grab some girlfriends and have a get away weekend! Make a gameplan and go somewhere! Somewhere new and somewhere fun! You deserve it don't you? Whether it's going to the mountains or sun and surf! Do something different and adventurous! GO!!!! Get busy!!! Tell me about it when you get back! It isn't that easy, but I would if I could I've booked a holiday to Turkey though! I'm ok, I've actually found respect for myself! When I meet someone else I'll leave them at the firt sign of mistreatment. That's a promise to myself.
aloneinaz Posted July 5, 2013 Posted July 5, 2013 It isn't that easy, but I would if I could I've booked a holiday to Turkey though! I'm ok, I've actually found respect for myself! When I meet someone else I'll leave them at the firt sign of mistreatment. That's a promise to myself. Glad to hear you're doing so well and the meds have helped you Lost! Keep the momentum going and start mingling w/some guys. Maybe go on a casual date or two if you're up to it. I'm 5 weeks NC since break up. I've been dating for 2 weeks now. Trust me, it's not a cure to stop you thinking about your ex but it's sure nice being with the opposite sex, hugging, kissing and feeling wanted vs. staying at home eating Ben and Jerry's, crying over a dead relationship or rejection.
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 5, 2013 Author Posted July 5, 2013 Glad to hear you're doing so well and the meds have helped you Lost! Keep the momentum going and start mingling w/some guys. Maybe go on a casual date or two if you're up to it. I'm 5 weeks NC since break up. I've been dating for 2 weeks now. Trust me, it's not a cure to stop you thinking about your ex but it's sure nice being with the opposite sex, hugging, kissing and feeling wanted vs. staying at home eating Ben and Jerry's, crying over a dead relationship or rejection. Oh, I'm not ready to date yet. I'm not mentally there yet. It wouldn't be fair on anyone. I need to work on myself. I enjoy my own company. I don't dwell over him anymore, those days have gone.
forgetmenot75 Posted July 5, 2013 Posted July 5, 2013 Hey there, I'm almost 4 weeks NC. No taking any meds right now, but I'm removing him from the pedestal slowly. I feel angry and sometimes still have the urge to contact him although I know it's useless. I'm slowly understanding the way he proceed with me, which it's all new since I was in a bubble when I was with him. I'm also starting to see the mistakes I made. I'm worried by the way he might remember me, though, because I acted like a crazy girl sometimes. I guess I won't really care about this when I'll feel completely ok. I still think about him, and not in an angry way, I still have feelings for him, and I miss his contact. I don't know if I'm ready to date again.
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 6, 2013 Author Posted July 6, 2013 Hey there, I'm almost 4 weeks NC. No taking any meds right now, but I'm removing him from the pedestal slowly. I feel angry and sometimes still have the urge to contact him although I know it's useless. I'm slowly understanding the way he proceed with me, which it's all new since I was in a bubble when I was with him. I'm also starting to see the mistakes I made. I'm worried by the way he might remember me, though, because I acted like a crazy girl sometimes. I guess I won't really care about this when I'll feel completely ok. I still think about him, and not in an angry way, I still have feelings for him, and I miss his contact. I don't know if I'm ready to date again. Well done! Keep at it! I'm not saying I'm over my ex, if I was I wouldn't be posting. I've just reached that anger stage! I'm not sure what comes next No, I'm not going to date for a long while yet, I can't even think about that...
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 6, 2013 Author Posted July 6, 2013 Not doing so great today. It's 'that time of the month' and rather than feeling angry I feel emotional and nostalgic. I know mother nature has a big part of how I'm feeling today, didn't help that I had a dream about him last night! There was a time where when I felt like this I'd grab my phone and reach out without a second thought of how I'd feel afterwards. I guess I've learnt something, right? I want to feel angry again!
theonlyjuan Posted July 6, 2013 Posted July 6, 2013 The anger stage was the best. I could vent and it would feel so good. I think I am at the depression stage now That's the bad thing about all this. You have days where you feel good and positive. All it takes it one bad day and you feel like your back where you started. At least you have learnt not to contact though 1
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 6, 2013 Author Posted July 6, 2013 The anger stage was the best. I could vent and it would feel so good. I think I am at the depression stage now That's the bad thing about all this. You have days where you feel good and positive. All it takes it one bad day and you feel like your back where you started. At least you have learnt not to contact though Yep, the anger kind of empowers me. Now? I feel like a weak little girl. I hate being a girl
Author LostGirl11 Posted July 6, 2013 Author Posted July 6, 2013 Right, I'm a bit of an emotional wreck today so the phone is being switched off and put away. Horrible horrible horrible little man. Must keep telling myself this tonight...
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