steveT95 Posted July 4, 2013 Posted July 4, 2013 Hi! Me again! I haven't being on here for a long while now. I was getting better. I have been receiving counselling and although it has helped with several problems I find it has gotten to a point where there is little more it can do. I was coping fine until I saw her (the ex) last week. I didn't speak I just walked straight past. I would have loved to be able to speak to her without it affecting me in anyway, but I am not there yet. Now the depression has got a lot worse and is seriously effecting my abilities at my new job (considering leaving.) I feel emotionally constipated. I have so much bottled up inside of me and constantly feel on the edge of tears. I am sure I would feel better if I just cried for awhile, just so I can accept and deal with the emotion. But I just can't bring myself to it. I try and think of times we were together or things she did to upset me but instead it makes me breathless and panicky. Has anyone got any tips for managing to get this emotion out? It used to be anger but now it is mainly sadness. Too long, didn't read? I need to get my sadness and feel like crying, but the tears won't come. Any tips? (Now go back and read the rest )
athousandquestions Posted July 4, 2013 Posted July 4, 2013 Write it out! Talk to a close friend! I prefer writing because you don't have to guard yourself, no one will read it but you. Just sit down tonight, in your favourite and most comfy pjs and write and write and write and write everything you feel. Pour your heart and soul into it. Just write everything you feel! I think you should continue to follow through with the counseling. I'm no therapist or counselor but it sounds like you have a lot of anxiety surrounding the breakup.
Author steveT95 Posted July 4, 2013 Author Posted July 4, 2013 I've vented so much verbally, with my counsellors (that's right, two!) I feel like I have nothing more to say. Instead there is just a massive build up of emotion holding me back from moving on. It is as if it is water held back by a flood gate that needs tearing down.
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