Brokeup 19 days ago, NC for 10 days, my bday is tomorrow and I'm dying to talk to him

[andilyn1]

I'm not going to break the NC, especially since I have a ppo against him, but tonight has been so hard for me, and I really think it has to do with my birthday being tomorrow. We had plans to spend the whole day together, and now nothing. I'm hurting so bad, and I really just wish I could skip tomorrow altogether. He did abuse me, so I know leaving him was for the best, but I had no idea my birthday of all things would make me hurt so bad. I can't even imagine how I'll feel tomorrow

[Tenderheartbear]

Special occasions are the worst after a breakup. The good news, though, is that they were special before him and will definitely be without him. Enjoy your birthday. Be grateful. You made it another year and have the chance to make the rest of your life the best of your life!

[LosingHope0806]

I'm not going to break the NC, especially since I have a ppo against him, but tonight has been so hard for me, and I really think it has to do with my birthday being tomorrow. We had plans to spend the whole day together, and now nothing. I'm hurting so bad, and I really just wish I could skip tomorrow altogether. He did abuse me, so I know leaving him was for the best, but I had no idea my birthday of all things would make me hurt so bad. I can't even imagine how I'll feel tomorrow

 

I know what you are going through entirely. But you will make it through. Please don't let this tarnish your memory of this birthday. Go out with friends and have fun and make it a memorable night!

 

And idk if the abuse was physical or mental but I'm happy that you found the strength to leave. Now find some more strength to make it through your birthday!

 

Happy early birthday!

[andilyn1]

Thank you both for the support! And I'm starting to get a little excited about tomorrow, so hopefully that's a good sign on how I will feel tomorrow. My friends already have plans for me for the whole day so I can stay busy And LosingHope, the abuse unfortunately was physical. Now that I look back, I can see a lot of instances of it being mental also. But what made me move out was the physical abuse. I was hit and pushed around, but fortunately got out with bruises and cuts and scrapes and my life!