You're a murderer...

[emceesid]

Hi,

 

This is my first post and it goes out to the one's like me who have been bumped and bruised, hurt and harmed, scarred and scraped in love, some lines you can relate to... A few lines to express the hurt i'm going through...

 

You’re a murderer and you murdered me

And you’re out there scot-free

There’s no court that will punish you for what you did

 

But you’ll be confined in the prison of your own heart

You will remember every hurt you caused from the start

 

I gave you all my trust, you failed me over and over and I was blind to not see

You told me we were always meant to be

 

I gave my heart, and sold my soul

But you made me a big fool*

 

Makes me wonder how you hurt and burnt me and still not have any guilt

All false promises and I thought it was love we built.

 

You ripped my heart and piece by piece you tore it apart

Day by day you killed me and my heart

 

Don’t trust what people say, trust only what they do

I trusted every word, every promise you made and I was blind too

 

The way you played my heart and cut it apart

I wish I saw this coming from the start

 

 

Oh yes! I taught your heart how to beatbut you took a hasty retreat

Like a coward you stabbed me and punctured my heart

 

I should’ve known and played the samegame

Played the same tune in love’s name

 

You will want to sleep but thoughts ofme will haunt you every night

And wake you up feeling scared in themiddle of the night

 

At a time when you trusted not a singleguy

You broke my trust but I gave youanother try

 

All you had were words to say

But none of which I could buy

 

*She called it a day on Fool's day, felt like a looser :-(

But now I know, she lost me, never deserved me....

 

This poem is incomplete... will post the whole poem in a few days... happy healing

[Giha]

״You will want to sleep but thoughts ofme will haunt you every night

And wake you up feeling scared in themiddle of the night״

 

Don't hold your breath

 

And honestly it sounds like you are putting way too much energy into this...let it go

[emceesid]

I did put in a lot. You have no idea. I did feel I was holding my breath, in fact for the first few days i'd see the mirror and witness my own funeral. Pain, pain and more pain. Now i'm not, want to set myself free.

 

I thought of writing these lines to her, but I'd never do that. So I put it up here.

 

Thank you for the support :-)

[angheart]

I didn't sleep last night, thinking about a guy who was smitten with me, he was ultra flirty I never paid any attention to him yet he would stalk me around and stayre at me even when a tall skinny blonde was talking with him, one night at the busstop he stalked me there also, like how did he know that I was there??? So he talks to me like a gentleman and then says he's married! He gave me a million flirts, even infront of his colleagues he would romantic bump into me so I could smell his nice perfume, this lasted all summer, I never reciprocated, he kept gettin more interested, only to reveal to me that he's married, if only he knew how dumb on his forehead to do that!

 

Your poem is right on, it's exactly how I feel.

No makeup and dressed classy still attracts garbage!

[Bozena]

Well she might come and ask for a third chance and she might seem really convincing. I hope you don't give her

[emceesid]

You’re a murderer and you murdered me

And you’re out there scot-free

There’s no court that will punish you forwhat you did

But you’ll be confined in the prison ofyour own heart

You will remember every hurt you causedfrom the start

I gave you all my trust, you failed me overand over and I was blind to not see

You told me we were always meant to be

I gave my heart, and sold my soul

But you made me a big fool

Makes me wonder how you hurt and burnt meand still not have any guilt

All false promises and I thought it waslove we built

You ripped my heart and piece by piece youtore it apart

Day by day you killed me and my heart

Don’t trust what people say, trust onlywhat they do

I trusted every word, every promise youmade and I was blind

The way you played my heart and cut it apart

I wish I saw this coming from the start

Oh yes I taught your heart how to beat butyou took a hasty retreat

Like a coward you stabbed me and puncturedmy heart

I should’ve known and played the same game

Played the same tune in love’s name

You will want to sleep but thoughts of mewill haunt you every night

And wake you up feeling scared in themiddle of the night

At a time when you trusted not a single guy

You broke my trust but I gave you anothertry

All you had were words to say

But none of which I could buy

If you stood next to me and heard my heartcrack

It wouldn’t sound like a clean break

But like the rain pounding hard on ametallic roof

Millions of drops cutting me through andI’m a living proof

I know your hurt too but I never meant to

AllI knew is that I loved you, I still do and will always love you…. Loveyou

[emceesid]

@ Bozena - She's never coming back... NEVER. All I wish now for her is to be happy and get nothing but the best I know it sounds like, hey she just ripped you apart and you still love the person with each of the broken pieces... well here's a thing about love - Giving :-)