ImBatmanGuys Posted July 1, 2013 Posted July 1, 2013 IF YOU AREN'T WILLING TO READ, JUST LISTEN TO LONG GONE AND MOVED ON BY THE SCRIPT. THAT'S HOW I'M FEELING!!! Wow, how should I begin? Let me start off by saying this is my first post on a forum in very long time.. Right now I really need people who are willing to hear my cries. I got retained in the 9th grade a year ago. I was very anxious about starting the school year.. That's until I got to know Melanie. Her and I started off as acquaintances. Then she texted me one day, and from that day on our friendship began transforming at an extremely rapid pace. One day, without me expecting it, she texted me "I really really like you!" Wow. I thought 'What am I gonna say?' at the time, I had very tough trust issues. Every girl I've been with has crushed my heart. So I told her "I'm willing to start something, but I'm not willing to make it official between you and me yet. I want to get to know you much more." You know the term "Friends with Benefits"? Well soon, as we continued talking, we became "Friends who were Madly in Love". We bought gifts for each other, chocolate, teddy bears, cards.. You name it! Then, one day she just stopped talking to me. No explanation, no argument.. She just stopped talking. We literally went 3 months without talking to each other. How horrible it was Then, one day on Facebook, I made a humongous apology to her about us not talking to each other. I MADE THE APOLOGY . I was the one who had to be a man and apologize for what was not my fault. TAKE NOTES, IT WILL COME TO HAUNT ME LATER IN THIS STORY. YES! We were back together, LIFE WAS PERFECT! I LOVED THIS! But.. guess what? The next month after my apology... she does the SAME THING AGAIN. And how is this resolved after 2 weeks of us ignoring each other? I ONCE AGAIN APOLOGIZE TO HER (Through text). Whew. Minor set back. Now let's continue on with this relationship! We continue the rest of the year, we eventually had OUR FIRST KISS, AND MANY MORE. Basically, we're in love. It's May and we're on break, now. We STILL aren't official, but I decide "What the hell, she's proven to me that there's a girl who can make me feel.. COMPLETE. Who won't break my heart and leave me. So I text her "Melanie, I'm going to make this official". And she's SOOO happy. I smile, because she texts me all of these things that show that she's happy! But then she says.. Her: "My mom can't know" Me: Why not? Her: She doesn't trust me with boys Me: So let's call the relationship off for now, and later on we'll continue when I introduce myself to your mom so we don't need to keep it a secret! Her: ... She got soooo upset and pissed, she stopped talking to me that day. I tell myself "She'll get over it" But Break is over, and when we're in school, she STILL doesn't talk to me. So I take the initiative to approach her through text about her ignoring me. And she drops a bombshell which I can ONLY paraphrase. "Brandon, I love you a lot but you just aren't the boy for me! I can't spend all of my time focusing on you. I can't be anything more than friends" Well, ****. I haven't dealt with a breakup in a while, so I overreact. "Are you kidding me?! So this whole time I was wasting my time with you?!" "Yeah" "Well then F*** you for wasting my time" "I was planning on being friends" "I don't need your friendship, you know DAMN WELL that's not what I want from you Melanie." We stop talking. I'm SOOOO FRUSTRATED! SHE DIDN'T GIVE ME ANY REASONS, ANYTHING AT ALL. SHE JUST LEFT. A week later, after ignoring each other, I go to her before school starts, hug her, and apologize. I mean, I could have talked to her without cursing at her. She hugs me back, and she's sooo happy. She's smiling because she THINKS i'm okay with the friend zone. Right there, I have the sudden urge to kiss her, because I still love her and I have all of these feelings. A week later of the friendzone, and my birthday arrives. She comes to school with a huge balloon, and she hugs me. THEN SHE KISSES ME TALK ABOUT PLAYING WITH MY EMOTIONS!!!!! I just smile and keep walking, my heart confused. I message her on Facebook 2 weeks later with small talk, trying to get used to being friends. F***, that's hard to do. Then I say Me: "I have something to say" Her: What? Me: Forget it Her: Why?! Me: I know how this will go. Her: I know what you're gonna say. It won't go like you think it will I explain to her my feelings, my confusion, everything. Me: How can you just lose feelings for me?! Her: Brandon, you've hurt me multiple times What. How the f***? Me: How?! Her: Whenever you would stop talking to me HOLD UP. SHE WAS THE ONE WHO STOPPED TALKING TO ME A LOT. I WAS THE ONE WHO WOULD HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR **** I NEVER DID. But I don't care. I'LL APOLOGIZE 100000 TIMES AGAIN BECAUSE I LOVE HER. I WANT HER BACK. Me: MELANIE I'M SORRY FOR ANY TIME I OFFENDED YOU BUT YOU NEVER COMMUNICATED ANYTHING TO ME. Her: I'm sorry for not communicating. We then go on a romantic apology spree. SHE SAYS THE SWEETEST THINGS. SHE MENTIONS KISSES, HOW SHE LOVES ME, ETC. Me: Melanie so can we start over? Her: I told you no. And that's it. That's the last words or contact we've had. At this point, it's clear she's toying with my emotions. The kiss, the sweet phrases, the memories. She knows I miss her, she doesn't give two flying f***s. Right now, Long Gone and Moved on by the SCRIPT best describes how I feel. Please, I need people to just counsel me, I want people to show that they understand how I feel. PLEASE HELP ME BECAUSE I'M A LOST SOUL.
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