Feel Stupid/Weak--Why?

[J.DAE23]

I feel stupid/weak. A month after break-up I made the mistake of getting in contact with my EX. She had said some hurtful things and I thought maybe if some time passed, we could talk without said hurtful things and we could end on good terms.

 

I was wrong.

 

Why am I still thinking about this bitch after she said "I don't like you. You mean nothing to me. I don't look at you as a human being. I could care less about you."

 

My emotions keep going from hurt to hate back to hurt and hate again. One minute I'm crying next minute I just want to hurt the girl. I don't want to have so much anger towards this person or anyone.

 

You would think that after all she said, I would snap out of it and say to myself---"This ***** crazy. You don't need that. You're better than that".

 

But I just want to beg her to take what she said back.

 

I feel like something must be wrong with me.

 

**** got me ****ed up.

 

Arrrrhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

 

Is this normal??? Or am I just ****ed up in the head...

 

I know I need to work on myself as an individual. The break-up made me see things I didn't like bout myself and what I wanted to improve and the things that I did like and would want to enhance. But still...**** hurts..can't wait for that period of indifference where I feel no hurt or anger and can see things clearly...

[Doobs]

You showed weakness yeah but you are young? You learn from your mistakes do not worry about it. BUDDY LISTEN, EVERYTHING WILL BE OK IN TIME, FACT. Seriously you will look back and laugh at yourself for feeling this way. You will not get her back by begging her and freaking her out. Do the opposite and make it look like you disapperaed of the face off the earth, if that's your plan. But best not to play games tho. Just forget about her. Keeping busy will keep your mind of it. Do things that make you happy. Don't d'well on the past everything will be ok. Plenty of fish in the sea. Smile man

Edited June 30, 2013 by Doobs