BLS Posted June 27, 2013 Posted June 27, 2013 (edited) It was a 2.5 year high school relationship which ended 3 months ago. For the first 2 weeks I tried to fix things, I had bones thrown to me that I could make it work but inevitably was shut down. I scoured this website and the rest of the internet for easy answers, guides to getting your ex back in the most bizarre ways. I cried once or twice. The next two weeks I imagined how no longer contacting her would lure her back to me. After all, absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? She even called me once like 3 times in a row followed by 5 texts! But I stuck to NC and didn't respond. Maybe she was going to ask, nay, BEG, for me back!? In this time period I'd have to see her everyday in school for at least an hour. This was unavoidable contact. So, she addressed why she called me. As I SHOULD of expected, it was nonsensical. That was unarguably the most miserable month of my life. I bought new clothes, joined a gym, made new friends and became more social but nothing could stop the hurt. Literally nothing. After one month I found myself feeling more OK on my own. I would go out with friends and she wouldn't be the only thing I talked about anymore. I saw my body improving at the gym. I still remember the first time I didn't think of her for an hour straight, it was an extremely inappropriate time but I could not help but smile at myself. I saw progress. Like I said before, I had to see her in class. I saw her change. Personally and physically. It made me nauseous at points. I had anxiety every day about going to that class. But I always made a concentrated effort to talk to every chick in that class other than her as possible Well 3 months LC now. I just finished with my High School Graduation. We shared what will likely be the last conversation we ever had with each other in our yearbooks. It meant a lot to me that she asked to write in mine. It brings a tear to my eye every time I read it. I still dream about her a lot. I have new people in my life. New women. Few things remind me of her anymore. Now that I no longer see her every day, I am officially in No Contact (even though we never spoke to each other, we still saw each other). LC made it better. I will be at my best after NC. I am excited for a new tomorrow **PS, YOU can be too** **PPS, you WILL be too** Edited June 27, 2013 by BLS
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