Birthday cam and went and nothing...Don't know why I am surprised.

[Blckrooster46]

Been about 2 months since the break up (long story if you want to know the gory details look at my past posts). I am doing light years better than I was, I still have hard days but I haven't spoken to her since we broke up and haven't reached out at all. I love her and I miss her but I realized that I should want her to be happy and if she isn't with me then it would be selfish to try and keep her. We had a great time together and she healed me a great deal after losing my father; it is funny actually I have realized that if I were to talk to her one day I would only want to thank her for the time we had, however long it may have been. She loved me and it brought me out of a very dark place and I will always love her for that.

 

Anyway today was my birthday and all I have been thinking is what a difference a year makes. Last year we were head over heels she got me an amazing gift, baked me pie, and dressed up in a sexy outfit. I was given a surprise party by my sister, I had the woman I loved, and all my friends and family around, it was perfect. I remember thinking wow for the first time in a while I am actually happy. Cut to a year later and while I still have family and friends I can't help feel like something is missing: the woman I love. I guess what it boils down to is some part of me thought she might at least say happy birthday but it came and went and nothing...... So anyone here have stories of when an ex has reached out? How long it took? Even if it was just something friendly and no threatening.