Kc220525 Posted June 24, 2013 Posted June 24, 2013 (edited) I've been with him for more than 2 years now, me being 21 and him 20. Even though we're young, we're both really mature when it comes to a lot of things and I guess that's how we stayed together for so long. 2 weeks ago, we got into a fight which resulted in him wanting a break. Over the break he acted very cold and distant, saying that without me around, he doesn't feel the need to have emotions anymore, and that all he focuses on is school and work. But when I ask him whether he has feelings for me anymore, he said he still loves me and cares deeply about me. He says he sees me as a longterm thing, that he'll be with me in the future, just not right now in this "emotionless" phsse in his life. I'm ashamed to admit that ever since the break, I haven't gave him space by calling him everyday because in my mind, I keep thinking it's a breakup and him saying it's a break and that he still loves me was just to soften the blow. He got angry that I was being impatient and even threatened to make this a permanent break if I don't give him space. I gave him space for several days and when I called again, he seemed to calm down. I didn't ask him if he wants to be together, I just asked him if we were going to hang out on our anniversary coming up this tuesday, and surprisingly he said sure. Even though he agreed to hanging out, his voice still seems very cold and distant on the phone. And although he admits to still loving me, and misses me and the memories we had together, he said he doesn't crave any intimacy (sex). But when I saw his blog, which he's not aware of me knowing about it, he's reblogging sex pics and talking about how he's craving it. It just tears me up inside because he said to me he doesn't crave intimacy yet he's reblogging those things, which makes me think he craves it with someone else. Also on his blog, he seems to be doing okay, yet why to me he's acting so cold? No matter how many times I asked him, he kept saying the problem is not me at all, and it's just his personal issues. As of lately, I think I've gotten depressed. I couldn't eat, sleep, or focus on my schoolwork because the only thing that occupies my mind is that why doesn;t he want to be with me if he really loves me? I feel like this whole thing has made me really immature, clingy, and desperate, definitely not something he would be attracted to. But I just can't help it, I feel like I have lost my best friend.. Anyway, I'm hanging out with him tomorrow, and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to act :/ A huge part of me just wants to act normal like nothing happened and just be my bubble self, and be affectionate to him. But another part of me knows that if he doesn't reciprocate tomorrow, I'll just end up being very sad and it'll probably make him not want to be with me even more. Even with him reassuring me that he still loves me and only me and that the problem is not me at all, his cold actions will make me think otherwise. How should I behave tomorrow and what things should I refrain from saying or asking if I want him to get back with me? Edited June 24, 2013 by Kc220525
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